Random Thoughts - The Women In My Life

Chapter Eighty-One: Mother

10/13/2022

*Eons Ago*

Rule #1 of the Book of Happy:
"Never Tell Mom."

Red: "The Rules Laid Before You Are Not To Be Broken, Especially This First One."
Blue: "Rules, huh? Who died and put you in charge?"
Yellow: "Come on, Mister, it's an easy one to follow!"
Purple: "What happens if you break it?"
Black: "I don't think I want to find out, Sister..."

*2022, September*

Cass: "My name is Cass. And I am part of The System-- I am part of your Son."
Mom: "I'm just trying to understand."

*2003, Ecuador*

"The choice is yours, you can stay with your Father, here, or you can come to Wyoming with Me."

*2007, Denver*

"I'm going to administer some medication to make the Voices go away."
Zisco: "They're not just voices!"
Truth: "Keep Quiet And Do As You're Told."

*2005, Wyoming*

Amanda: "I just thought maybe you were...you know...gay?"
Z: "No, of course not!"

*2003, Ecuador*

Mateo: "I just wanted to apologize for bullying you all those years, you know it was just fun and games, right? I hope you can forgive me?"

*2013, Fort Collins*

T: "I Just Want To Talk, Robin, Let Me In!"
Z: "Truth, we need to leave..."

*2022, September*

Mom: "Do you think that maybe if you hadn't picked up that comic, you wouldn't exist?"

*Eons Ago*

Rule #5 of the Book of Happy:
"Never Tell Juan."

Red: "The Rules Laid Before You Are Not To Be Broken, You Are To Follow Them To The Letter."
Blue: "Jeezus, why are we still listening to you?"
Yellow: "Come on, Mister, just listen..."
Purple: "Basically We can't tell anyone anything?"
Black: "I think He means well, Sister..."

*2021, Fort Collins*

Roman: "I just want to tell you--I've been gone for a long time, and I am stuck here, inside this body."
Juan: "I'm listening, trying to understand."

*Eons Ago*

Blue: "You don't belong here, you're an abomination."
Purple: "How can you be so cruel?"

*2022, Present*

Cass: "He cut my f*cking hair! It's so short!"
Jay: "I know, baby..."

*2022, October*

Therapist: "Can you tell me one reason why you want to live?"
Z: "Mother."
Therapist: "What's another one?"
Z: "My girlfriend."
Therapist: "Keep going..."

*2004, Ecuador*

Grandpa: "Everything happens for a reason, you have to be strong no matter what."

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Wonder Woman art piece done by Alex Ross

Mother with Son and Daughter original piece by Vickie Wade: https://www.etsy.com/listing/589597974/mother-son-and-daughter-art-printgirl?epik=dj0yJnU9ZjF3eHpZQWhYMmJsUER2T1JMcE1NUjVPdGhzemFSWlgmcD0wJm49TUhLLUtLakRrdFVYakdiQUs5OVg0USZ0PUFBQUFBR05lWUc4

Last two comic panels taken from Hack/Slash: Issue #17, "Cassie And Vlad Meet The Reanimator, Part 3, of 3."
Script – Tim Seeley
Story – Tim Seekey and Barry Keating
Art – Emily Stone
Colors – Mark Englert
Letterer – Crank!
Design – Sean K. Dove
Editor – Mike O’Sullivan
October 2008

Chapter Eighty: My Pink Crown

8/13/2022

The Shield Maiden,
She Makes The System Feel Safe And Sound.

Her Baberina,
Protector And Fashionista.

Roman's Druidess,
Always Self-Less.

X's Island,
True And True,
Like The Sandman's Pouch,
Sure.

Until The End,
You're Our Tulip,
A Warrior Too.

Crazy As Jane,
Perfect Puzzle Piece,
Damaged Lovely Masterpiece.

Maeve's Double Gin And Tonic,
When She Walks Into Any Room--
Always Iconic.

I Am A Devil Of My Word,
I Told You I'd Rewrite Your Song.

You Fit Every Corner,
Every Scar,
So Even If I Am "Gone" Momentarily,
I'll Always Follow My North Star,
My Pink Crown,
My Shield Maiden.

Until Next Cycle,
When I Have Waken.

Chapter Seventy-Nine: Ruby Red

1/3/2022

Who Goes There?
Who Is That?
Watch it, T.
Or What?

Or what? You know I know you--you're still a Monster,
you have not changed.

Watch What Comes Out Of Your Mouth Next.

You no longer scare me, Old Timer.
I am the Designer.

You May Have Grown In Power, Sure,
But You Are Still Unsure Of It All.
Unsure And Nervous.
Meanwhile I Can Still Surface.

So--I noticed her noticing.
It ain't like the old days,
when you hid in plain sight.

Right.

Do you see her light?

I See Her Darkness.

As you always do,
you never change.

Change? No. I Evolve.

I wish you'd dissolve.

The Aether Is My Strength,
And You Are Not My Weakness.
This Will Always Be A Part Of Me--
My Family.

Strength In Numbers,
Or Did You Forget?
What Once Was A Kingdom?
Well-Set.

These Humans,
I See Their Pain For A Reason,
This Is No New Season.
You Call Me A Monster,
I Was Kept In A Cage,
But Do You Not See?
I Feed Off Rage.

You can't save everyone,
that is your problem,
you're just like Cass,
picking up strays.

The World Is Different Now,
Even Mother Can See.

I Am Free.

Or is it because I let you?
Because I enjoy to see you fall?

And Living Alone, Isolated, Is Your Way To Go?
I blame Cass for that, she should have done as I told her.
We are not good for people--
they will only get hurt.

Sure, Cassandra Opened Up The Portal,
We Are No Longer Mortal.
The World Sees Us For Who We Are.
I Do Not Need To Hide.

Yes, yes, the almighty god,
the original monster,
but you are just burnt bread in the toaster.

Careful, Mind Your Tongue, Editor,
I Am Still The Apex Predator.
The World Belongs To The Broken,
For They Are The Evolved.
In The End The Cockroaches Are Dissolved.

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Ruby Red,
welcome to The Collective,
hope you don't mind the dread.
This Kingdom is built from pain,
and chaos.
But something tells me you understand what that's like.

In time you will learn more of the story,
that's true.
If you choose to stay,
that's on you.

I have yet a lot to learn, too.

And so the story goes on,
you've been here before dear reader,
the story of the Red Leader.

But this world is different than in the old days,
that's true.
This world is now at the mercy...

of Blue.

Chapter Seventy-Eight: Wild Card

1/3/2022

Who the fuck are you?
Are you a new one from T's or Blue?
Should I trust you or tell you to fuck off?
Are you a friend, an enemy, or a one-off?
Got to talk to you--something changed.

Did you see me, or were you telling me what I wanted to hear?
Like a temporary comfort of cutting my hair with shears.

And as soon as I noticed you weren't fake--
T, hold up--what's at stake?

You kept me away, let my daughter roam free.
What is it? Could she see?
Friends in comfort--haven't had that in a while,
but god-fucking-damn, look at that style!
Jealous of those clothes--ugh, T, is she good, or hostile?

Cassandra--Do You See Her Like I Do?
What about Blue?

Blue Has Nothing To Do With This-- You Know His Stance.
So should I give her a chance?
No One Could Ever Control You, This Much Is True.
Haha, ya, not even fucking Blue.

She Is Trustworthy, A Friend--
And you know that I need those--
We All Need Friends In Our End.

But this isn't my end, is it? T, would you tell me my Truth?
Anything for that pain-- anything to sooth?
Cassandra, She Sees You. For Every Inch Of Who You Are.
Are you sure... I can't be disappointed again.
She Sees Your Pain.
I just--I'm so alone.
Then Let Wild Card In--Let Her See Your Throne.

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Time After Time

Crazy Jane gets along with Wild Card.
I Told You, You Would Not Regret It Thus Far.
T, why do you still care for me, even after all I've done?
I Just Know, You've Got Good Intentions In Your Heart.

I would never want her to be hurt--
She Could Never Be Tore Apart.
She is my friend--
And She Will Remain.

Something about us stubborn gals--
And One Day--Best Of Pals.

T, I just want her to stay, not to fade away--
Like The Old Chapters, Those Who No Longer Stayed?
I can't feel alone again--
So Stay Strong, Cassandra, You Are A Queen-- Reign!

So time passed, and T was right,
she saw me for who I was,
alas.

In this life you have to keep your friends close--
and your enemies closer, I suppose,
but T taught me one thing in this crazy life,
no matter the strife--

"New Friends Bring Energy To Your Soul."
And one day--that will help me feel whole.

Chapter Seventy-Seven: Wayward Queen

9/8/2021

You talked Him down at his prime,
brought him back from rage and made him fine,
I remember that image, I've seen it,
then you were gone before I left,
but I wasn't scared, I knew you'd be okay,
I didn't want to forget-- I wasn't alright.

Walking below the white moonlight,
never clean, never pure inside,
I knew what it felt like to burn in Heaven,
and to drink until you forgot to feel alright,
glutton for punishment,
would you be the one to clean the blood from inside?

Do you know what it's like to burn in Heaven?

Would you kindly bleed again, if you can take it?
Let me drink your heart--
is it vacant?
Sleep while the Demon Queen watches you sleep,
drink if you feel like enjoying the weekend,

Live and keep living,
the Earth of the Collective has split,
but since Day One I've known which is your side.
I remember the image, I've seen it,
takes me back to that Garden,
our first meeting.

Then she pushes me into the corner,
"Drink!"
And I feel the bitterness--
like flames from Heaven,
and so I bleed again, but I can take it.

Will you drink with me until your heart is vacant?
Sleep alone but my demons will keep you company,
I'll be around--until the weekend.

All the damage you have done
Bleach I drink tastes better on my tongue
I tried to swallow all the damage you have done
But the bleach I drink tastes better on my tongue

While I bleed, I know you know I can take it,
And then you drink me like a drink,
your heart no longer vacant.

So we sleep together,
different corners of the bed,
but the demons are around--
we aren't vacant.

Share that Moscato,
here comes the weekend,
I will never forget you, R,
you are my--

Chapter Seventy-Six: "Tank Girl"

1/25/2021

Long ago she was there,
did you forget her?
Welcome Tank Girl,
just met her.

And we clicked,
tick tick,
like a bomber gone sick.
Maybe it was bad timing,
as always with you boys,
you were there then gone,
she knew you,
but you left me alone.

So I missed out,
but guess what,
fortune favors the bold,
that's why I'm your heart attack.

Tank Girl, meet Cassandra Hack.

Tick, tock,
she's a bomb,
not fragile like a flower,
watch out she's a dime,
hidden firepower,
badass mommy full-time.

T's got Chapters,
I got Bad Girls,
welcome to my club,
we have no masters.

Another boss ass bitch,
this is the sitch.

This is Cassandra's Wonderland,
are we just not grand?

Say hello to Tank Girl,
zero fucks,
so give my Kingdom a swirl,
see you on the other side,
this is your head bitch in charge speaking.
Redux.

Chapter Seventy-Five: "Wild Flower"

12/28/2020

Straight for the castle,
follow the river,
don't mind the shivers.

Laugh at Life's tragedies,
keeps you strong,
fuck the technicalities.

So kill them with kindness,
the world is a nasty place,
fuck that, you got enough grace.

When you fight the world,
remember you are the fire,
all that pain and heartache,
fuck that damage.

Young spirit,
strong woman,
much to learn,
dare they stop you?
They wouldn't.

A mad world we live in,
you showed me strength,
not to give in.

And then you left,
was this for you?
A test?

Why do the good ones always leave?
Or was it Truth's job to deceive?

Chapter Seventy-Four: "Caretaker"

4/9/2020

Simple "Hello,"
Care To Wager?
"Say hello back,"
A Stranger.

Constants And Variables,
What Is The Parable?

So Then You Saw The Caretaker Again,
"Is this is chance? Or is it coincidence?"
"Find The Significance?"

Friendly Voices In My Head,
"Could anyone understand us?"
"Much Confusion," Brother, It's What's Said.

So There Goes Roman,
Wrong Time,
Wrong Moment.

"Whiskey?"
"No, Vodka."
"Ah, gotcha."

*Warmth* spells a new batch,
"Shut Up, Roman, What's The Catch?"

"Let someone in,
or are you that afraid, brother?"
"Just Overly Cautious, Is That A Sin?"

The Caretaker seems honest.

*** Solace ***

Then months passed, felt like eons for the old god.

The world's pandemic still at odds.

Who writes our stories?
That Is A Mystery.
Who buries our worries?
That, Dear Brother, As They Say...

Is History.

Chapter Seventy-Three: "Bastet"

3/12/2020

Devil's In The Details,
She Said, "Eyo!"
What A Fun Way To Say Hello!
Got That Energy,
Welcome New Synergy.

Little Quiet,
Little Reserved At First,
Something Hidden,
I Could Tell, That's My Curse.

Just Gave It Time,
You Opened Up,
Same Time As Ass-Kicker And Sassy Pants,
Must Have Been Something That Pulled You Together,
Some Kind Of Trance.

Was It The Energy Of The Castle,
A Newly-Build Kingdom,
Brick By Brick,
By All Of Us,
This Would Be Our Second Home,
To Let Go Of All Troubles,
Lean On Each Other,
Face The Struggles.

Then Time Passed,
Saw You Less And Less,
Was The Kingdom Struggling,
Or Was There Some Other Stress?

Then You Came Back,
Some Things Remained,
Scar Tissue,
Newly Stress Chained,
But You Helped Me Heal,
Humor And "Positive Vibes"
You Became Part Of My Tribe.

Advice Given,
So I Gave It A Shot,
Can It Help The Bleeding In My Eyes Clot?

Only Time Will Tell,
And I Got Nothing But Time,
I Make My Own Heaven Or Hell,
Tell Me, Bastet, Will You Join My Pantheon?
Or Will You Stay A Phantom...?

Chapter Seventy-Two: "Boss"

2/19/2020

Day One,
Where Was I... Gone.
Someone Else Was Driving
The Vessel,
Tough B**** At That,
The Rebel.

She Picked This Setting,
The Narrative,
Forced Us To Learn,
It Was Imperative.

A New Prison,
So We Sang In Unison,
Time To Get Real,
Follow The Rules Again,
Lest You Be Discovered,
And Faced The Pain.

Then I Came Across You,
And I Saw Something,
Playful Banter,
Or Was It Nothing?

Fast Forward Some Months,
You're Different Than Other Ones I Called Boss,
Long Ago They Weren't Understanding,
But Deep Down You Saw Something.

A Little Quite Observant,
My My, Boss,
You're Determined.

Then New Changes Happened,
As Time Always Likes To Tease,
This Ride Would Not Come With Ease.

But You Noticed,
You Asked Questions,
You Tried To Understand,
Even Welcomed My Directions.

Simple Things Might Confuse,
But The Door Is Open,
So Said The Muse,
And Now You Got Her Name,
And Roman's,
So You'll Ascend Among The Humans.

Welcome To The Collective, Boss,
Just Follow The Blood Red Spots.

Writer/Artist

My name is Francisco, you can call me Zisco.

Endings are hard, but in reality, nothing ever ends, does it?

I'm not perfect, I'm just a human being. I make mistakes and I try to redeem myself. Life ain't easy, but I manage. I like to help people with their problems, but when they are too much for me to handle, I much rather not. I'm a great listener, but there are things I believe are better handled on your own.

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