Desintegration.

I Want To Live Forever;
This Is A Bond Which Cannot Sever
That Taste To Which I Crave,
Once Turned Me A Slave
But Is Now My Stationary Wave.

Once They Were All Appealing,
A Taste Worth Stealing,
Breathing In A Scent Worth Concealing,
But Now Only Yours Is Worth My Feeding.

A Desperate Feeling Guilt-Trips Me
Like A Wild Screaming Banshee,
In My Dreams He Stands Like An Everlasting Tree,
Staring At Me Carefree.

Is He Staying Voluntarily,
Or Is This Some Form Of Heresy?
Am I Remaining Temporarily,
Or Are We Merging Momentarily?

Am I To Surrender To His Mercy,
To Live In A Depraved Controversy?

Are These Feelings Transforming
The Way I Am Performing?

As I Get Ready For The Play,
Before I Decay,
To Bid Adieu Would Be Hearsay,
For I Still Have Lots To Portray.

To Understand Regret, Guilt, And Sympathy
Is To Spit On My Divinity,
For All These Once Were Apathy,
A Much More Beautiful Symmetry.

So Am I To Embrace These Feelings,
A Different Kind Of Bleeding,
And By Putting On Hold My Proceedings,
Will You, Then, Put Judgement On My Pleadings?

I Wish Not To Rob You Of Your Time,
To Cage You In Pantomime,
While I Punch In Overtime,
Inside A Victimeless Crime.

So Please Forgive Me As I Remain,
While I Bring This Body Certain Pain
That I Know It Can Contain
A Migraine You Can Maintain
Much Closer Than The Jugular Vein
Embrace Your Imminent Domain.

Not Much Longer, Though, I Assure
Got A Chapter To Secure
But Do Not Fret, I Stay Just To Make Sure,
She Sees Me As Pure.

All That We've Achieved,
A Group Of Warriors Received,
Gathered Around The Throne Conceived,
Success Guaranteed.

A Few Obstacles To Destroy,
But Do Not Worry, Old Boy,
Rejoice And We'll Rejoin,
Momentarily Desintegration Conjoined.

For If To Embrace You Is To Merge,
To Forever Drown And Submerge,
As Long As We Have Her--
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Let's Converge.

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