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Chapter Thirty-Two: "Diamond Girl"

9/7/2016

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"You have to learn to love yourself and slowly let people in," her words rang true.

I met this Chapter whilst on the lookout for my next relationship. Well, I should clarify, I wasn't technically on the lookout, I just stumbled upon it. And while I was in the early stages of getting to know my next potential girlfriend, this Chapter helped me through what would later come as a transition from not feeling anything, to feeling everything all at once.

This Chapter helped me pick out the coolest gadgets for myself; I was in the last stages of healing and so I proceeded to spoil myself with watches, rings, and other jewelry. This is where I met her: at a jewelry store.

I liked her not only because she knew what she was talking about, but because she was mature and she had gone through some stuff that had made her stronger than she looked.

She had a lot of advice for me, and a lot of it helped me from self-destructing at times. She became a great friend and sooner than later I opened up more; it was like she helped me open up from that cocoon I had built after the breakup.

If anything, she helped me shatter the walls. I found myself going out to karaoke, something I never expected to do again, and found myself being cheerier.

However, it always seems to be with me that when I meet someone great, they either move away, or get moved away.

This happened with her.

And now we don't speak as much as we used to.

But once again, from the shadows, I can still see that she is doing okay, still fighting the good fight, remaining the strong woman I know her to be.

And perhaps I will reconnect with her one day, as well.

But why is it so hard for me to do that?

Is it the voice in my head that's keeping me away?


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    Tortured Poet

    I have come to realize that along the endearing journey most people call life, I’ve met (and still am currently meeting) countless numbers of women. However, as sad as this might sound, I haven’t exactly been the nicest guy to most, if not many of them.

    It is not because of my actions during the timeframe when I met them, but mostly it is because of the consequences.

    For every action there is an equal or worse reaction, and when it comes to the women in my life, this is often the case.

    I have always had my best intentions in mind, but something that is recurrent is that my emotions tend to cloud my judgement and tend to get in the way of things.

    So let me start at the beginning, recollecting memories, thoughts, and remembering dreams of what happened once, what happened next, and what will continue to happen after.

    ​Welcome to my recollection of true events, true people, but most of all, just the plain and simple God-honest, blunt and painful truth about my Chapters and I.

    Don’t expect a happy ending.
    ​
    This isn’t a fairy-tale.

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