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Patient #0032

4/7/2021

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Truth's Daughter,
Will You Carry Her, Brother?
Lamb To The Slaughter?
She Is Only Here To Find Her Father,
Daddy Issues,
You Know?
Do Swipe That Sweat Off Your Brow.

Ivy Is Powerful,
Guess You Would Not Know,
You Are Always So Involved,
Yet Never There
Searching For A Reason--

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Being Split In Many Is Our Season!!

Hehehehe!
Come On, M
on Frère!

Did You Forget Me?
The French Mistake,
The French Asshole,
If There Was A Cure For Us,
In The End After Integration,
We Would Not Be Whole.

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Patient #0027

3/29/2021

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Hell - One Year Ago This Day

"Welcome to the Heartbreak Hotel,
Voudriez-vous me dire votre nom?"

"I'm Eve! Who are you?"

"It doesn't matter who I am, I am here to teach you, chérie."

"Teach me what, exactly?"

"As they say, teach you the ropes; so you can use them...instead of getting hung up at the noose by them. Heheheheheh."

"Noose. Will You Let Her Loose?
I Thought We Had A Truce."


"Now, now, stay behind me, thy foul fiend!
She has not been completely screened."

"Eve Is Off Limits, I Told You So."


"Oh, is that right... 'bro?'"

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Hell - Now

"Welcome back, Eve! Hope you got your tricks ready-- up your sleeve!"

"Is it time now, Daddy?"

"Yes, Daughter, it's time to play."

"Oooh! Then we can slay!!"

"Do me a favor, do send my regards."

"Give them your personal playing card?"

"Oui, oui, daughter. Now, enjoy your day."

"This is so exciting!!!"

"Now, do not bother me, I will be writing."


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Patient #0028

3/19/2021

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Inside The Collective
One Year Ago This Day


"Special" is just a nice word for--"

"Weird? Or Crazy? It Can Also Mean Significant, Or Amazing."

"How do you know that, huh? Because what, you are also special? You don't get it, do you. Do you ever feel like what you have been given is a curse? Like what you have been given is more of a crutch than a gift?"

"I Know How That Feels, That Hard *Thump Thump* Inside Your Chest--"

"No, see, I know that you think you do--but you have no idea. Do you know how it feels to shut your eyes, to be trapped inside your own head?"

"I Do. I Know Exactly How Powerless That Makes You Feel, Jean."

"I can't control it!"

"Yes, You Can."

"No! I can't! And I am tired of pretending I can!"

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"I am afraid one day I am going to hurt someone--I have seen the end of our world."

"You Can Change The Future If You Focus On The Now. Do Not Dwell On Who You Were, The Past Might Be Your Origin, But It Has Brought You Here, And I Am Here To Help."

"You have no idea who I am. Stop telling me what I should feel, how I should behave-- You. Cannot. Control me, Charles."

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Now

"I'd Like You To Focus, Listen To My Voice, Jean."

"I can't, no, I can't... I can't control it!"

"Jean, I Am Trying To Keep Your Pain Away."

"No, you are just burying it."

"Don't. Let. It. Control. You."

"Goodbye, Charles, this is the only way-- The only way I can save my family. Emotions-- They make me strong. One day you will understand, Charles."

"Jean, Do Not Do This! You Can Do Better!"

"I am better, Charles. Always have been better--- Than you."

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Patient #0021

3/10/2021

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No Rest For The Soulless,
Welcome To Therapy, Miss Hopeless,
The Lightbringer Brought You To My Earth,
What Do You Plan To Earn?
What Is It You Yearn?

You sound like Lucifer, why is that?
What is it you're doing,
what war is it I hear brewing?

Well, He Comes From Me,
That Much Is True,
Think Of It As The Woman Who Came From Adam's Rib,
Except You're More Blue.

Care to tell me more,
I am confused,
why does my head feel contused?

You're A Lesion,
You Are Pain,
You Are Cassandra's Ailment,
But You Are Also Her Chains.

Pain, that I know much.
*swings knives*

Careful, Lady Mazikeen,
Do Not Touch.

Are you afraid, Grandpappy T?
Of what I will do to you?

Afraid, Oh Darling, No.
Ashamed For Blue.

What is your beef with Daddy Z, may I ask?
You seem so obsessed with him--

*T sips from his flask*

Let It Go, And Heal, Darling,
You Hurt Yourself Big Time Last Night.
You Need To Recuperate, There's Plenty More Sparring.

Can I see Momma Cass, then, at least?

No! Your Relationship With Her Is Deceased!

But--

No Buts, No What Ifs,
You've Angered Me For The Last Time, Mazikeen.
Now Take A Seat On That Throne,
I Have The Nails And The Hammer,
You're Immature,
Just A Teen,
So Good You Know Punishment,
This Next Part Will Hurt Me More Than Hurt You,
Consider This Your New Routine.


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Patient #009

4/15/2018

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J'allais partir pour la France,
je ne voulais rien de plus que d'être libre,
je voulais danser.

Mais les choses ne marchent jamais comme elles le devraient.

La famille va et vient.

Et alors vous 
êtes seul.
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Nous étions quatre,

maintenant nous sommes trop nombreux,

mais aussi pas assez.

Je n'appartiens pas...

...alors laissez-moi tranquille​.

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Patient #0014

9/22/2017

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HURR HURR
THIS IS A STORY,
A STORY ABOUT A SISTER'S SIN,
HER NAME CASSANDRA,
BETTER TAKE A DRINK
HURR HURR

SHE'LL SEND YOU HIBBIE JEEBIES,
DOWN YOUR SKIN,
A SISTER,
A SISTER'S SIN,
HURR HURR

ONCE UPON A TIME SHE WHISPERED
IN OUR EAR
THINGS, THINGS YOU COULD NOT
MAKE OUT
BELIEVE
​A SISTER'S SIN

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HER STORY UNLIKE THE OTHERS,
YOU KNOW,
HURR HURR,
US BROTHERS

HER BEGINNINGS, VERY BAD,
ONCE UPON HER TIME,
A TIME WAS SAD,
HURR
SHE KNOWS THE PAIN,
HURR,
SHE SHARES OUR BRAIN,
HURR,
BUT INSIDE SHE USED TO HIDE,
HURR,
SHE HATED THE OTHERS' PRIDE.

UNTIL SHE MET A GUY,
HURR,
SHOULD HAVE SEEN IT COMING,
HURR,
THINGS WERE ABOUT TO GET UGLY.


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BUT SHE WAS ONE OF US,
SO WE HAD TO JOIN,
HURR HURR,
TOGETHER,
OR SHE WOULD HIT OUR GROIN,
A BADASS ALWAYS,
HER MASK,
HURR HURR,
HELPED HER BREATHE LIKE MINE,
TO BE MORE THAN WHAT WAS ALLOWED,
HERE CONFINED

HURR HURR I JOINED IN HER PARADE,
TOOK THE MANTLE OF VLAD,
THAT WAS MY CHARADE
HURR HURR
CASSANDRA,
YOU'RE BACK
​BUT I'M GONE


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DON'T FORGET OUR TIMES,
HURR HURR,
SLASHING SLASHERS,
GETTING COVERED IN GRIME,
WIPING KNIVES CLEAN,
HURR HURR,
NOTHING COULD COME,
HURR HURR,
COULD COME BETWEEN
HURR HURR,
YOU AND THE OTHERS,
US BROTHERS,
WE WOULD ALWAYS CARE,
HURR,
FOR YOU,
​NEVER BE UNFAIR


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I WAS IN CHARGE NOW,
HURR,
TO WATCH OUT FOR YOU,
HURR,
AS MORE STARTED TO JOIN,
FRIENDS, FANS,
HURR,
AND EVEN THE CREATOR,
HURR HURR,
BUT I COULD SEE YOU BEGAN TO BECOME UNHAPPY,
HURR,
TOO MUCH TO DO,
AND BEAR,
YOU WERE NO LONGER AS CHATTY

HURR HURR
​HURR


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IT WAS MY JOB TO PROTECT YOU,
HURR
AND I FAILED,
HURR HURR,
I SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN SELFISH,
HURR HURR,
OR JEALOUS,
HURR,
SO HE HID YOU FROM ME,
HE WAS OVERZEALOUS,
HURR
OF MY INTERVENTION,
HURR,
SO I LEFT, AND BEGAN MY COLLECTION.

AND I SLOWLY STARTED LETTING GO,
HURR,
BUT I ALWAYS LOVED YOU SO,
HURR HURR,
AND NOW THE OTHER BROUGHT YOU BACK,
AFTER HE DESTROYED OUR HOME,
HE WHO'S COLOR YOU SHARED,
BLACK.

HURR,
BUT YOU ALSO SHARED MINE,
BLOOD RED,
HURR HURR,
SO MANY WORDS LEFT UNSAID,
HURR HURR,
CASSANDRA SAW IN VLAD,
MORE THAN HIS UGLINESS,
BEYOND THE MONSTER,
AND SHARED TOGETHER,
THE LONELINESS.

CASSANDRA HACK,
THE SLASHER OF SLASHERS,
HURR HURR,
SHE'S BACK,
HURR HURR,
TO KEEP US IN LINE,
​THE WOLF PACK.


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Patient #007

6/24/2017

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"Unhappy that I am, I cannot heave
My heart into my mouth. I love your majesty
According to my bond; no more nor less."
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“No, no, no, no! Come, let's away to prison:
We two alone will sing like birds i' the cage:
When thou dost ask me blessing, I'll kneel down,
And ask of thee forgiveness: so we'll live,
And pray, and sing, and tell old tales, and laugh
At gilded butterflies, and hear poor rogues
Talk of court news; and we'll talk with them too,
Who loses and who wins; who's in, who's out;
And take upon's the mystery of things,
As if we were God's spies: and we'll wear out,
In a wall'd prison, packs and sects of great ones,
That ebb and flow by the moon.”

“The weight of this sad time we must obey,
Speak what we feel, not what we ought to say.
The oldest hath borne most: we that are young
Shall never see so much, nor live so long.” ​
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“Yes, yes, of course. Come, let's cover in shelter:
We two alone can play like masters i' the box:
When thou dost ask me for distraction, I'll kneel down,
And ask of thee patience: so we'll live,
And run, and play, and escape from clutches of tyrants and smile and cry
At false idols, and hear poor truths
Talk of bad news; and we'll play with them too,
Who perishes and who thrives; who's chained, who's aimed;
And take upon's the travesty of rules,
As if we were the True Lies: and we'll wear them on,
In a wall'd shack, tortured souls of once Great Ones,
That sing and sacrifice by the Moon.”

"...No, I’ll not weep.
I have full cause of weeping, but this heart 
Shall break into a hundred thousand flaws, 
Or ere I’ll weep. O fool, I shall go mad!"
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Patient #0012

6/7/2017

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flowing going,
motions potions,
in you with you,
photos,
but this ain't Kansas, Toto.

i know it isnt funny,
but come along, sunny,
boy youre missing,
a looooot of kissing!

:)

dont worry i know its sudden,
i cant just let the flood in!

:)

so take youre time ill be here,
ill never disappear.

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just remember it may not be home,
a new one now,
youre not alone.

still got those you love around,
and now we have a crown!

shes a royal funny loving,
super duper cool,
she keeps me humming.

a puzzle piece thats been long missing,
a badass vixen!

so rest up, we'll try another time,
im sorry i pushed you,
​nighty night time.


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Paciente X

6/6/2017

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Doce de la noche me despierta su voz,
ten cuidado me suspira suavemente,
tranquilo, hermano, vaya a ser precoz,
el dolor? No, amigo, el amor,
muy cierto, hermano,
adelántate,
corre,
 Niño,
no te tropiecez, se viene el 
engaño.

Pero que mas puedo decir,
era una vez que el mundo estuvo al revez,
ya toca combatir,
que guerra es ahora, pregunto?

Cuidado,
​se viene el viento.  

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Te acuerdas el tiempo,
no hace mucho, pero era cierto,
que juntos solo los tres,
alegres.

Y ahora que sucede,
de nuevo todos sueltos,
quien lo defiende?
Ya no estan adheridos.

Sientes la cruz,
esa alrededor de tu cuello,
camina hacia la luz,
olvida aquello.

Sonrie, Francisco.

Yo soy tu pedazo de cielo,
te salve una vez, y te levante del infierno,
uno de los mas importantes pacientes,
atrapado lejos en un mundo alterno.

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Y ahora que es esto,
tanto tiempo a pasado,
​donde me encuentro,
dime
Niño,
tengo preguntas
no me des pocas respuestas.

Veo que ahora hay otra chica importante,
que me dices,
no es chica es mujer?
'ta bien me parece la cosa,
una situacion mas grande,
mas vale,
no la arruinemos, hombres!

Guarda su mirada en el
corazón
con raz
ón,
besos adaptaron,
voces reflejaron,
quién la tiene,
de
quién es ella? 

Niño aqui se vienen las memorias,
tantas, pocas,
habia muchas tantas locas.

Francisco,
te acuerdas la ciudad,
ahora solo siento animosidad,
paso a paso te olvidaste,
que gran parte,
nacido y atacado,
santo pecado.

Y ahora queda un laberinto,
tantos vamos, andamos perdidos,
solo entre amigos hay enemigos,
a quien confiar ya se viene la hora,
cuando llame,
ojalá se acordara.
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De repente veo,
hay aqu
í hay allí,
tanto que hay, ahora leo,
si, lo se, Rojo, si 
leí.

Dame tiempo, no me apures,
tanto me e perdido,
tengo que verlo bien,
todavia no acostumbrado a mis alrededores.

Pero si me doy cuenta de algo, es la Reina,
lo a cambiado, si a ti
también.
No hay duda, es por verse,
como si todo este tiempo anduviese
corriendo por la mente buscando,
al perfecto imperfecto,
hasta que directo la llave rompió,

y ahora la Reina a todos
cambió.
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Patient #0011

5/29/2017

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Beginning:
Whiteness in darkness. Observation: Not alone.
Feeling: Suffocation.
Deduction: Pain.
Options: Unsure.
Help: Ask?

Voice: "Hello? Friend. Not foe. Not alone."
Response: Noise. Unclear. Voices.
Voice: "Response required. Please. Friend. Not foe."
Response: "Not Foe. Friend."
Voice: "Friend. Promise?"
Response: "I Keep My Promises."
Voice: "Thank you... Name?"
Response: "Mood. Angry. Yours?"
Question. Answer: "Mood? Unsure. Indifferent?"
Response: "Are You Unsure? Of What You Feel?"
Question. Answer: "Feel. Emotion. Mood. Purity? Peace. Calm."
Response: "You Bore Me. Standing There, Stiff. Like A Column."
Statement. Deduction: I am a column. Columns are stiff.
Interruption: "You get bored easily, silly man. Pshht. He's one of us, duh. He can be a hero!"

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Deduction: A hero. With power. With family. Friends.
Voice: "A hero, like you?"
Response: "Like all of us, Mister!"
Distraction: Noise. Elsewhere.
Second voice: "If we stay together."
Statement. Answer: "I would like that."
Feeling: Safe.
Voice: "Will you show me?"
Response: "Yes. Come."
Question: "Your mood?"
Response: "Not a mood. Name."
Deduction: Name. Important?
Question: "What is your name?"
Response: Francisco.
Statement. Deduction: Moods in names.
Question: "Is there always noise?"
Response: "Not noise. Music. Singing."
Statement. Deduction: Music is peace. Is calm. Is safe.
Francisco: "Come. Meet the others. Watch over them. That is your job. Your duty."
Statement...Or order? Question: "My duty?"
Response: "Yes. You are a Guardian."
Observation: Door. Opening. Light.

Whiteness.

​In Darkness.


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    Sibling

    My name is Francisco, you can call me Zisco.

    Endings are hard, but in reality, nothing ever ends, does it?

    I'm not perfect, I'm just a human being. I make mistakes and I try to redeem myself. Life ain't easy, but I manage. I like to help people with their problems, but when they are too much for me to handle, I much rather not. I'm a great listener, but there are things I believe are better handled on your own.

    Check out my Deviantart website at: http://p1ls3n3r.deviantart.com/
    And while you are at it, check out my YouTube channel:  http://www.youtube.com/user/ziscokid88?feature=mhee

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