Syringes

Imma give it to ya straight,
no filter,
I always thrive,
facing pain wasn't unfamiliar,
once I was on the edge of crying,
feeling incomplete,
I would bleed 'til I was blind,
losing my will and my drive,
forgetting the love for fighting when I'd wake up in a fucked up daze,
wiping my eyes screaming, "Why?" with disgrace.

Then the world went black,
so they threw me in solitary,
left alone with my hate to bury,
was screamin' for the martyr,
was afraid I'd never be found,
up against the world, it was fight or drown,
tearing at his walls, solve the riddle, rip the crown.

Couldn't call for help, so I wiped the sweat from my brow,
psychological imbalance with lotta baggage, full of dents,
then our world began forcing us to deal like self-defense,
so emphatic but traumatic, wanna kiss it, are you impure?
Mind is splittin' while we're grinnin' realizing there's no cure.

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Showing up for villains is to broadcast,
with a smile and rhyme, oh honey, it's to outclass,
"Stay inside, out at night," was my motto,
I was playing my role to stay alive, like I gotta,
all the moods and 'tudes, they became my groove,
until I started to use and I broke the rules,
always lookin' for new ways to hijack,
teach me how to run, I'd have to hustle back,
speaking in tongues was to earn it,
family--don't talk to 'em, they don't see you as perfect,
back inside again I felt cheated,
I stayed hidden in my book, I felt deleted,
got cuts in their arms and it's never healin',
wasn't always me who fell, but it was me screamin',
so emphatic but traumatic, wanna kiss it, are you impure?
Mind is splitting while we're grinning, and still no cure.