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Welcome to Hades' Underworld

3/5/2021

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The Underworld

"Well, aren't you a sight for sore eyes?"
"Hello, daughter."
"Ha! *hello daughter* is that all you have to say to me?"
"Mazy I--"
"No, nuh-uh, you don't get to *Mazy* me and just expect me to--to, what, exactly?"
"I just want you to listen, daughter."
"Right? Listen? Ha! Okay, please, enlighten me--enlighten the fuck out of me, cause clearly, it's fine that all of a sudden you're back and--and what now? Huh?"
"I don't expect you to understand-- I, too, do not have all the answers, daughter."
"No shit, Sherlock!"
​"Mazikeen Rot! Daughter of mine--a little respect, if you wouldn't mind."



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The River Styx

"Care to toss a coin to your ferryman, dear?"
"Charon--I um, I'm looking for someone."
"Passage requires payment, up front, if you would not mind."
"Ugh fine, fine, fuck. Here-- would this do?"
"Ha! Look at this-- I haven't seen this stone in over a millennia. Yes, this will do."
"I get it back, though right?"
"Payment for passage is non-refundable, dear."
"Ugh. Let's just go. Please, I need to talk to him."
"Where would you like to go, dear? Lethe? Acheron? Phlegethon? Or perhaps a trip down to Cocytus?"
"To Acheron, please."
"Ah. Well, I hope you enjoy the sights, it will be a long boat ride there."
"I have no problem with pain, Charon, I am the Queen of Hell."

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Lilith

1/17/2021

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Now

She's gone.

What am I supposed to do now?

I am nothing, if not a piece of her, you understand that, right?

Bring her back.


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​My mother.

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I should hate her, for making me-- For bringing me out here, to this world.

I don't want to be here.
Look at me.
I am... ugly.

I don't belong here.

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I tried...but with Roman gone, I can't continue.

Just let me be, Lucifer.


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The Murder Of Lucifer Morningstar

1/6/2021

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Present Time

Time, as always, passes on through, leaving many things behind: friends, family, unfamiliar acquaintances and even perhaps, siblings.

It has been some time since Truth had murdered Mazikeen and desecrated her body. Leaving Lucifer alone at Lux, wondering what his next move would be.

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Christmas Time

"Well, It's A Good Day To Die As Any, If You Ask Me, Brother." Lucifer said to Amenadiel as he prepared for the attack.

"Are you sure you want to do this, Luci?" Amenadiel, ever the concerned brother, asked.

"Now, Now, Brother. You Heard The Writer. We Need A Villain. And Truth Has So Ever Valiantly Volunteered As One."

"It doesn't feel right, Luci. This wouldn't be what Father wanted."

"Who Cares What Father Wants! This Is What We Need To Do!"

"Sorry I'm late for the party, boys." Mazikeen said as he joined them, swinging her knives in hand. Eager to use them.

"Is Everything Prepared?" Lucifer asked.

​"To the letter, Lucifer. Truth will never see it coming."

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“The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he did not exist.”


Now

"Lucifer!" Maze screamed as she held Amenadiel's beaten body in her arms.

"I Did It. It's Done."

"What--what--what has happened, Maze? I can't-- Can't can't see." Amenadiel struggled, bleeding profusely, his eyes torn out of their sockets, he reached for some comprehension of what had just happened. Anything. Any small glimmer of hope.

"Now, Now, Let's All Calm Down, Yes?" Michael said sarcastically.

"Shut It, Michael. It's Over."

"Alright, Then, Tell Me This Then? Who Da New King Of Hell? Hehehehehe!"


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Hell Is Where My Heart Is

9/29/2020

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I'm feeling things I've never felt
At times it gets me overwhelmed
But he mistook me for somebody else
If he thinks I'm fine, he doesn't know me well

Been trying to keep me down
But I hold my breath so I don't drown
Watch your step, T, I'll tell ya now
That I don't do well when I'm pushed around

Don't come at me with blazing guns
'Cause I am not the one
Not the one,
I've got

Zero
Zero tolerance
Zero
Zero tolerance

I've been through Hell and back again
So if he thinks I'm weak, he's mistaken
Look me in the eye, my dear sibling
And you'll see I know how this will end

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​Today it's going to be the day,
the day you should figure out,
what I am all about,
perhaps you forgot,
while you replaced Roman with Rot,
as I forgot as well,
leaving Cassandra in hell,
guarding my throne,
​while I paraded up here alone.

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After all,
one kingdom without a queen,
might as well be broken,
never cared for,
never seen,
and as everything was left alone,
demons ran amok loose.

Until I found her,
up above on Earth,
simple smile,
truthful and free,
intertwined in my story,
she helped me see.

I make my own fate,
I am not your prisoner,
I am a queen,
pain is my signature.

Stuck in a throne with nails through my hands,
I was made to serve you,
but she set me free,
showed me love when all you cared about was the Three.

But you cannot kill me,
nor erase my heart,
for what I feel,
has been a wayward love from the start.

Once in the story,
a season regular,
a character with an allegory.

A true friendship,
as strong as the oldest story.

Of the garden where you two met,
that's when the spark of the fire was set.
​https://www.comicartfans.com/gallerypiece.asp?Piece=1592578

​Mazikeen sketch by Peter Gross
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Purple Is The New Maze

7/27/2020

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Abandonment issues?
Pass me that box of tissues.
You really think you can psychoanalyze me?
I'm not Cassandra, don't confuse me.

She went off the deep end,
almost took us with her,
you'd know that, Red,
if you had opened your eyes sooner.

But now, too late, you've ruined her.

You no longer can bring her peace,
just talking about you to her breaks her ease.

T should stand for Trigger Warning,
I'm done talking!


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So What Are You Going To Do, Mazikeen?
Have You Planned What Comes In The Next Scene?

What Makes You Think You Can Adapt?
It's Only A Matter Of Time Until You Start Feeling Trapped.

You See This Vessel,
These Chains,
Someone Always Pulls Our Strings,
Free Will Is But A Joke In Here,
Can You Feel Yourself Fitting In Our Tier?

If Not, Give It Time,
This Is No Victimless Crime.

One Day You'll Break, Too,
If There's Someone Else Who Knows About Torture...

It's Blue.


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"Let's Get Rid of Cassandra," He Said

6/7/2020

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She's on a bender, T,
what would you have me do?


Push Her Away Like Always,
What Else Is New?


So she can come back worse,
probably angrier and relentless?


I Am Restless, Blue.

Well, so am I, that's true.

So Gather Up Doc,
Last Therapy Session,
Key And Lock.


You will regret this, I know--

Out Of Options, This Is A New Low!

Said the sinner playing saint.

Welcome War Paint.

War always-- god our family sucks.

I'll Call Upon Lucifer, He's Hiding At Lux.

I'll call on Vlad, he's Cass' crux.

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A Monster.

Lamb to slaughter?

The Only Daughter.

She's our sister.

A Deadly Whisper.

So then this is it?

Always Her Guardians, Now Throw Her Into The Lazarus Pit.

Truth!

Come Now, Blue!

There has to be another way.

This Is Our Last Play.

Lest we die?

Alone.

Come what may?

What Would You Have Me Say?

You're the reason why she'd stay.

And Why I Am The One That Has To Slay.

But we'll do it together.

Take My Hand Then.

Time and time again.

Our Beautiful Crime.

One last--

Nursery Rhyme.

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Let Myself Go

2/25/2020

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Hell.
Torture Chamber #14
Day 60.


"How Is She?"
"Still taking it."

"Did You Run The Scenarios?"
"Of course I did. I have been."

"Well Then, I Do Believe This Will Have To Be A More *Hands On* Experience, Maze."

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Day 30.

"Do you want me to keep going, or are you done?"
"Is that the best you got? You fucking suck."
"Haha, I'm just getting started, sweetheart."
"Bring it, bitch."

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Day 40.

"--and then I had the Old God tear into her."
"Fascinating-- And Yet, No Response? No Usual Smart-Ass Remark?"
"No. I can feel her breaking, Lucifer."

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Day 1.
"Merry Christmas, Cassandra."
"What did you do? What the fuck did you do, T!?"
"Just Made A Deal With The Devil, Darling. Nothing More."

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I built these walls to hide my ghosts
Your fingers trace the wounds exposed
I try and try to let you in
But I fail again and again
So I keep you at arm's length and let you go
But I don't wanna give you away
Yeah I keep you at arm's length and let you go
But only if you promise to stay
You think you know that you know
But you really don't know me
I know you love so hard
And it's killing me slowly
And now I can't eat, can't sleep
Knowing that you're not lonely
I know you love so hard
And it's killing me slowly
Killing me, killing me
Killing me slowly
I run this maze, erase my steps
With lips that lie, with every breath
You try and try to let me in
But I hurt you again and again

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Hell.
Torture Chamber #14
Day 61.

"Little more hands-on, he said, well I have to admit. This is infinitely way more fun."
"..."
"Haha, nothing more to say, dear?"
"..."
"Lucifer will be pleased."
"..."
"Haha. Hold that thought! Be right back."

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Hell.
The Throne

"Well, I have come bearing gifts, Lucifer."
"Gifts? I Don't See A Golden Chariot Filled With The Whores Of Babylon Parked Outside."
"Very funny, that's next week, darling."
"Alright, I Give. Do Tell, Please."
"She's gone mute. Rendered her speechless."
"You Don't Say? Pun Definitely Intended. Please, Show Me."

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"My, My... Well, What Have You Got To Say For Yourself, Dear Sister? Nothing?"
"..."
"I See What You Mean, Mazikeen. A Job Well Done."
"Now...time to fill your end of the bargain, Lucifer."
​"Yes, Indeed, I Am After All... A Devil Of My Word."


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Your Own Personal Hell

1/27/2020

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Where Did She Go,
Where Has She Gone,
You Ask A Question,
Answers I Have One.

Her Own Personal Hell,
Oh Well,
So Carefully She Arrived,
And Sat Still.

Cassandra Hack.
To My Domain,
​I Welcome You Back.


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In Between Pain,
In Between Hate, In Between It All, You Are What You Ate.

Down Here,
Where It's Cold,
You Are Stuck Inside Your Own Door,
And You'll Never Grow Old.

Endure, Repeat,
Your Own Hell Will Play Over And Over,
Might As Well Take A Seat.

How Many Times Will You Kill,
Yourself And Your Kin?
​Most Unforgivable Sin.


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Mazikeen Will You Do The Honors,
And Offer Our Guest
A Fistful Of Flavors?

It would be my pleasure to torture,
you know I enjoy it, Lucifer,
should I light up the scorcher?


Play Out Her Insecurities,
Her Most Damaged Memories,
Play Out Her Hate,
But Call Me Over...
The Moment She Breaks.

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Lucifer! She has a strong will,
she's seen pain before,
some might say she finds some thrill.


Well Then Bring Out The Pill,
Shove It Down Her Throat,
And Wait Till It Bubbles Up,
Till She Chokes.

Should I switch my blades,
look at her skin,
already scarred.


Use Something Sharper,
But Cut Carefully,
Show Her What It's Like To Burn,
​Mentally.

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You are strong, human,
some might say too strong,
but down here in Hell,
humans are always wrong.

You lived a life of killing,
slashing and hacking,
but that life is over now,
down here I'll do the cracking.

Don't try and escape either,
there is no way to get loose,
down here in Hell,
Lucifer Morningstar ties the noose.

What is it you ask?
What is my name?
I am Mazikeen Morningstar.
Queen of Hell,
Child of the Lilim,
Torturer of the Bowels of Hell.

You were sent to me for a reason,
or reasons unknown,
I don't particularly care,
down here I own the throne.

So let's start with a simple question, Cassandra,
are you ready to begin?
I do like the taste of your skin.
Let's cut up that mind of yours,
let's see where your mind has been.

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A.uthorized A.ddiction

1/20/2020

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"Why don't you tell me in your own words, *why* you did what you did? Was it the booze?"

"Maybe."

"Were you unhappy?"

"Maybe."

"Was it him?"

"Maybe."

"Well then...what was it?"

"I don't know what you mean."

"I know what's wrong with you. You're just broken inside. You never did anything right. You're fucked up. Say it with me."

"I'm broken. I never did anything right. I'm fucked up."

"Do you feel better?"

"No."

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You met me, you embraced me,
held my hand, and taught me.

You helped me, you showed me,
you treated me right--
you broke me.

You chained me, you watched them lock me-- up,
so high on your throne,
won't even answer your phone.

I called, I yelled,
I screamed, I prayed.

I served, I followed,
I fell-- so hollow.

Got drunk, got high,
got cut, got tied--up,
won't you come down?
Wipe the blood off my brow.

No? So powerful,
masterful,
excuse my manners,
brother and I will travel.

Bring you down myself,
cut you up myself,
burn you up myself, 
tie you up myself,
I'm going to show you true hell.

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​Art:
"Lucifer and Maze leave hell" by Christopher Moeller.
Lucifer Morningstar & Mazikeen from "Lucifer Vol. 2: Father Lucifer. Part Four: World Unchained"
Digital painting of Lesley-Ann Brandt as Maze: https://www.deviantart.com/libertinem/art/Mazikeen-645727577
Lucifer by Christopher Moeller "Let There Be Lux" painting commission. 

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When this began,
I had nothing to say,
you had no reason to stay,
was I not enough for you to cry,
were you somewhere else,
dare I pry?

You gave me reason to come back,
long ago I swore to stay back--
back in my world, the world of Cassandra Hack.

I forgot what it meant to be part,
part of the boys,
I used to watch you all play together,
you shared your toys.

Then came the pretender,
he who wore green better,
a monster, a fact,
one stuck in his own little act.

We were amazing together,
nothing would bother,
come back Roman, my brother.


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Do we fit his narrative now?
Wow.

You asked me once, not long ago,
do I have what it takes?
Or will I always break?

Can I hurt you as he hurt Truth?
Will that make him stop, will that slay the brute?

The animal, the savage, the snake,
the monster, the beast--
will you shatter when I break--
you.
In pieces?
My Roman, my Eliot--Anubis,
​damn your hubris.


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I'm not a princess,
I'm a king,
High King Margo The Destroyer,
if that's what it takes,
I'll spare you the spoiler.

You follow the story,
from Fillory to Earth,
back together,
forward unto glory.

So play your part,
we're back to the start,
and three hundred years into the future,
we're a masterful piece of art,
​my fellow ruler.


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So let's kill a god,
paint it black,
like once we did,
once more we can slay his heart.

For he is weak,
although he thinks he's strong,
but this time this god,
could not be more wrong.

Grab your key,
push to start,
open your eyes,
and turn me loose,
sweetheart.

Playtime is over,
I would know,
​let's begin the takeover.


​Art: https://www.deviantart.com/bkomei/art/The-Magicians-Fanart-Contest-Height-of-Power-770729584
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​Art: https://www.deviantart.com/markbizkit/art/I-m-Not-Here-To-Play-770646230
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Age aliquid

12/27/2019

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What Exactly Am I Supposed To Do Here, Maze?

Can't you see the tears streaming down my face?

Stop Bleeding And Fix Your Posture.

Stop this torture!

You Are The Torturer, Maze, Don't Forget.

Then stop with the threats!

I Do Not Threaten, I Promise.

Always so honest.

I Will Never Lie To You, You Know That.

Then why am I going mad?

Tit For Tat.

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You are so selfish you cannot see what you are doing.

Are You Afraid Of What It Is I Am Pursuing?

I want to go home, Lucifer, you promised.

You Need To Find Your Calmness.

You are just drowning us in pain!

I Am Not The One Carrying Chains.

So quick and witty, but you're just being mean.

And You Keep Acting Like You're Eighteen!

Then stop this nonsense and do what you're supposed to!

Some Things You Just Can't Undo...


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    If the bounty pays,
    then I will slay,
    for torture is my game,
    if you care or not, that's all the same.

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