Random Thoughts - Maze

Let Myself Go

2/25/2020

Hell.
Torture Chamber #14
Day 60.

"How Is She?"
"Still taking it."

"Did You Run The Scenarios?"
"Of course I did. I have been."

"Well Then, I Do Believe This Will Have To Be A More *Hands On* Experience, Maze."

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Day 30.

"Do you want me to keep going, or are you done?"
"Is that the best you got? You fucking suck."
"Haha, I'm just getting started, sweetheart."
"Bring it, bitch."

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Day 40.

"--and then I had the Old God tear into her."
"Fascinating-- And Yet, No Response? No Usual Smart-Ass Remark?"
"No. I can feel her breaking, Lucifer."

***************
Day 1.
"Merry Christmas, Cassandra."
"What did you do? What the fuck did you do, T!?"
"Just Made A Deal With The Devil, Darling. Nothing More."

I built these walls to hide my ghosts
Your fingers trace the wounds exposed
I try and try to let you in
But I fail again and again
So I keep you at arm's length and let you go
But I don't wanna give you away
Yeah I keep you at arm's length and let you go
But only if you promise to stay
You think you know that you know
But you really don't know me
I know you love so hard
And it's killing me slowly
And now I can't eat, can't sleep
Knowing that you're not lonely
I know you love so hard
And it's killing me slowly
Killing me, killing me
Killing me slowly
I run this maze, erase my steps
With lips that lie, with every breath
You try and try to let me in
But I hurt you again and again

Hell.
Torture Chamber #14
Day 61.

"Little more hands-on, he said, well I have to admit. This is infinitely way more fun."
"..."
"Haha, nothing more to say, dear?"
"..."
"Lucifer will be pleased."
"..."
"Haha. Hold that thought! Be right back."

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Hell.
The Throne

"Well, I have come bearing gifts, Lucifer."
"Gifts? I Don't See A Golden Chariot Filled With The Whores Of Babylon Parked Outside."
"Very funny, that's next week, darling."
"Alright, I Give. Do Tell, Please."
"She's gone mute. Rendered her speechless."
"You Don't Say? Pun Definitely Intended. Please, Show Me."

**************

"My, My... Well, What Have You Got To Say For Yourself, Dear Sister? Nothing?"
"..."
"I See What You Mean, Mazikeen. A Job Well Done."
"Now...time to fill your end of the bargain, Lucifer."
"Yes, Indeed, I Am After All... A Devil Of My Word."

Your Own Personal Hell

1/27/2020

Where Did She Go,
Where Has She Gone,
You Ask A Question,
Answers I Have One.

Her Own Personal Hell,
Oh Well,
So Carefully She Arrived,
And Sat Still.

Cassandra Hack.
To My Domain,
I Welcome You Back.

In Between Pain,
In Between Hate, In Between It All, You Are What You Ate.

Down Here,
Where It's Cold,
You Are Stuck Inside Your Own Door,
And You'll Never Grow Old.

Endure, Repeat,
Your Own Hell Will Play Over And Over,
Might As Well Take A Seat.

How Many Times Will You Kill,
Yourself And Your Kin?
Most Unforgivable Sin.

Mazikeen Will You Do The Honors,
And Offer Our Guest
A Fistful Of Flavors?

It would be my pleasure to torture,
you know I enjoy it, Lucifer,
should I light up the scorcher?

Play Out Her Insecurities,
Her Most Damaged Memories,
Play Out Her Hate,
But Call Me Over...
The Moment She Breaks.

Lucifer! She has a strong will,
she's seen pain before,
some might say she finds some thrill.

Well Then Bring Out The Pill,
Shove It Down Her Throat,
And Wait Till It Bubbles Up,
Till She Chokes.

Should I switch my blades,
look at her skin,
already scarred.

Use Something Sharper,
But Cut Carefully,
Show Her What It's Like To Burn,
Mentally.

You are strong, human,
some might say too strong,
but down here in Hell,
humans are always wrong.

You lived a life of killing,
slashing and hacking,
but that life is over now,
down here I'll do the cracking.

Don't try and escape either,
there is no way to get loose,
down here in Hell,
Lucifer Morningstar ties the noose.

What is it you ask?
What is my name?
I am Mazikeen Morningstar.
Queen of Hell,
Child of the Lilim,
Torturer of the Bowels of Hell.

You were sent to me for a reason,
or reasons unknown,
I don't particularly care,
down here I own the throne.

So let's start with a simple question, Cassandra,
are you ready to begin?
I do like the taste of your skin.
Let's cut up that mind of yours,
let's see where your mind has been.

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A.uthorized A.ddiction

1/20/2020

"Why don't you tell me in your own words, *why* you did what you did? Was it the booze?"

"Maybe."

"Were you unhappy?"

"Maybe."

"Was it him?"

"Maybe."

"Well then...what was it?"

"I don't know what you mean."

"I know what's wrong with you. You're just broken inside. You never did anything right. You're fucked up. Say it with me."

"I'm broken. I never did anything right. I'm fucked up."

"Do you feel better?"

"No."

You met me, you embraced me,
held my hand, and taught me.

You helped me, you showed me,
you treated me right--
you broke me.

You chained me, you watched them lock me-- up,
so high on your throne,
won't even answer your phone.

I called, I yelled,
I screamed, I prayed.

I served, I followed,
I fell-- so hollow.

Got drunk, got high,
got cut, got tied--up,
won't you come down?
Wipe the blood off my brow.

No? So powerful,
masterful,
excuse my manners,
brother and I will travel.

Bring you down myself,
cut you up myself,
burn you up myself,
tie you up myself,
I'm going to show you true hell.

Art:
"Lucifer and Maze leave hell" by Christopher Moeller.
Lucifer Morningstar & Mazikeen from "Lucifer Vol. 2: Father Lucifer. Part Four: World Unchained"
Digital painting of Lesley-Ann Brandt as Maze: https://www.deviantart.com/libertinem/art/Mazikeen-645727577
Lucifer by Christopher Moeller "Let There Be Lux" painting commission.

When this began,
I had nothing to say,
you had no reason to stay,
was I not enough for you to cry,
were you somewhere else,
dare I pry?

You gave me reason to come back,
long ago I swore to stay back--
back in my world, the world of Cassandra Hack.

I forgot what it meant to be part,
part of the boys,
I used to watch you all play together,
you shared your toys.

Then came the pretender,
he who wore green better,
a monster, a fact,
one stuck in his own little act.

We were amazing together,
nothing would bother,
come back Roman, my brother.

Do we fit his narrative now?
Wow.

You asked me once, not long ago,
do I have what it takes?
Or will I always break?

Can I hurt you as he hurt Truth?
Will that make him stop, will that slay the brute?

The animal, the savage, the snake,
the monster, the beast--
will you shatter when I break--
you.
In pieces?
My Roman, my Eliot--Anubis,
damn your hubris.

I'm not a princess,
I'm a king,
High King Margo The Destroyer,
if that's what it takes,
I'll spare you the spoiler.

You follow the story,
from Fillory to Earth,
back together,
forward unto glory.

So play your part,
we're back to the start,
and three hundred years into the future,
we're a masterful piece of art,
my fellow ruler.

So let's kill a god,
paint it black,
like once we did,
once more we can slay his heart.

For he is weak,
although he thinks he's strong,
but this time this god,
could not be more wrong.

Grab your key,
push to start,
open your eyes,
and turn me loose,
sweetheart.

Playtime is over,
I would know,
let's begin the takeover.

Art: https://www.deviantart.com/bkomei/art/The-Magicians-Fanart-Contest-Height-of-Power-770729584

Art: https://www.deviantart.com/markbizkit/art/I-m-Not-Here-To-Play-770646230

Age aliquid

12/27/2019

What Exactly Am I Supposed To Do Here, Maze?

Can't you see the tears streaming down my face?

Stop Bleeding And Fix Your Posture.

Stop this torture!

You Are The Torturer, Maze, Don't Forget.

Then stop with the threats!

I Do Not Threaten, I Promise.

Always so honest.

I Will Never Lie To You, You Know That.

Then why am I going mad?

Tit For Tat.

You are so selfish you cannot see what you are doing.

Are You Afraid Of What It Is I Am Pursuing?

I want to go home, Lucifer, you promised.

You Need To Find Your Calmness.

You are just drowning us in pain!

I Am Not The One Carrying Chains.

So quick and witty, but you're just being mean.

And You Keep Acting Like You're Eighteen!

Then stop this nonsense and do what you're supposed to!

Some Things You Just Can't Undo...

If You Want Peace...

12/10/2019

...prepare for war,
nothing but hunger in your heart,
no longer rotten,
just charred.

So much for ride or die,
long ago you'd give up the lie,
but now you're a cold fucker,
and I am no longer a sucker.

So I'll sharpen these knives,
and polish my bat,
I'm cutting my ties,
you fucking rat.

So high up in your throne,
forgotten about me, I'm used to being alone.

So if you want peace,
you got it, T,
but war was never easy.

I tried and tried to let you in,
but keeping you at arms length fits,
because you love too hard,
and that is just killing me slowly.

So run through this Maze,
see if you can shake her loose,
all you will be doing, dear Lucifer is tying your own noose.

What's the matter, can't eat? Can't sleep?
Are you a Lion or are you a Sheep?

Tomorrow is my day of reckoning,
been fifteen years since you've been echoing.

Kicking and screaming is how I will go,
if you choose yourself over me,
then it will be so.

Happy birthday to me,
maybe one day you'll open your eyes and see,
I was there with you,
at the beginning,
part of the three.

I of the [T]ige[R]

11/7/2019

[R]esen[T]men[T]

I need a short term fix for a long term problem
Can I learn to love these chains?
I know I had a point but now I forgot it
While I'm circlin' the drain

No, I can't stop feelin' like every day's exactly the same
With a one track mind I don't think I can change
Trapped in memories stuck on replay, replay, replay

Starts with a spark, then it's a wildfire
Burning me up
Burning me up
A dance with demons on a high-wire
Lift me up
Lifting me up

[R]esen[T]men[T]

[You know I lost my voice when I let the Rot in
Truth cuts both ways]

Pourin' out my heart
All that's unforgiven
Washing over me like rain

No, I can't stop feeling like every day's exactly the same
With a one track mind I don't think I can change
Trapped in memories stuck on replay, replay, replay

Starts with a spark, then it's a wildfire
Burning me up
Burning me up
A dance with demons on a high-wire
Lift me up
Lifting me up

[R]esen[T]men[T]

I've got this chip on my shoulder
So I press the issues on sight
For all who need introduction
Welcome to the I of the [T]ige[R]
Go!

Starts with a spark, then it's a wildfire
Burning me up
Burning me up
A dance with demons on a high-wire
Lift me up
Lifting me up
Starts with a spark, then it's a wildfire
Burning me up
Burning me up
A dance with demons on a high-wire
Lift me up
Lifting me up

It's a wildfire
It's a wildfire
Resentment
It's a wildfire
It's a wildfire

[R]esen[T]men[T]

Full 180

11/1/2019

I built these walls to hide my ghosts
Your fingers trace the wounds exposed
I try and try to let you in
But I fail again and again

So I keep you at arm's length and let you go
But I don't wanna give you away
Yeah I keep you at arm's length and let you go
But only if you promise to stay

You think you know that you know
But you really don't know me

I know you love so hard
And it's killing me slowly

And now I can't eat, can't sleep
Knowing that you're lonely
I know you love so hard
And it's killing me slowly

Killing me, killing me
Killing me slowly

I run this maze, erase my steps
With lips that crack, with every breath
You try and try to let me in
But I hurt you again and again
So I keep you at arm's length and let you go

But I don't wanna give you away
Yeah I keep you at arm's length and let you go

But only if you promise to stay

All alone in the glass house
Lie awake 'til the sun's out
Pink sky when you come down
M3 in the driveway
Caffeine for the heartache

Never wanna have it my way
Yeah, I fuck up and lose control
Burned so many bridges, got nowhere to go
I'm smoking cigarettes alone until it burn a hole
In my lungs, in my soul, in my denim coat
Same place I'ma keep that knife if I'ma slit my throat
This shit ugly, I was just with T, now he ghost
They even got my homie Romy out here, like, fuck the jokes
Damn

Why don't you throw me in the damn flame?
Bury me in gold chains
Throw me in the damn flame
I'm waitin' on the rain to come and wash it all away
Why don't you throw me in the damn flame?
Bury me in gold chains
Throw me in the damn flame

All alone in the glass house (just keep it going)
Lie awake 'til the sun's out
Pink sky when you come down
Sometimes I wanna fuckin' scream or run away, I don't know

So I passed out with the blood dripping
In this glass house, feelin' like a prison
Me and death keep tongue-kissing
I just fell out with my lil' bro
The life getting to us, the drink getting to us, the drugs getting to us
It's highway to hell and everybody knew
What the fuck were we doing?

Why don't you throw me in the damn flame?
Bury me in gold chains?

God Mode

9/5/2019

Once upon a time you gave me all you had,
front and center you opened your heart,
a full you that I once thought I knew,
but now you're just a shadow,
no longer unique among the few.

When we first met you wanted to protect me,
but you didn't know then who the real villain was,
all you did was focus on me.

We went through the days hunting and slashing,
reaching new towns,
finding cheap motels and crashing.

A tired way of life but someone had to do it,
it was us who volunteered,
despite our wrongdoings.

One too many came at us looking for a fight,
we were no strangers to pain,
it was always fight not flight.

A few tried to get in between us,
monsters, beasts, gods, and humans,
they all fought hard,
but not one could ruin.

We had each other's backs tenfold,
everything else was put on hold.

But I see where we stand here and now,
you are no longer here to wipe the sweat of my brow.

And maybe what you did you thought was right,
I just hope one day you come back,
to my side once more to fight.

Pyro

8/30/2019

The trees stood like knives
And claimed us for their own
I'm sold down the river
Before I knew I had enough
Before I knew I'd sink deeper
Than where you'll stop
But I look up
Until I lose the light
Are you reaching out
Stop
I'm lost
In a dark row of trees
In the evening's red
A cold silence
But I look up
Until I lose the light
Are you reaching out
Stop

Burn, so I can rise.

8/1/2019

Well here comes trouble,
been fighting for so long,
stick and stones,
Mama raised me,
told me to stay strong,
trust me, it didn't take long.

Got my eyes set on gold,
mark these words,
nothing you can do to stop me,
because here comes trouble.

You better run for cover,
get ready to rumble,
here comes trouble.

Trouble.

Trouble.

Pushing through no pain no game,
won't stop until they know my name,
take my shot,
reach the top,
there's nothing you can do to stop me.

Here comes trouble.

You better run for cover.

Get ready to rumble.

Here comes trouble.

Trouble.

Trouble.