A long time ago, I opened my eyes for the first time; during that first time, I felt confused. I felt trapped. I wanted out, I could feel my arms and my legs but they were locked down. Like someone had tied me up. I felt them--but I could not move. So I stayed there--unmoved. I just looked around and all I could see was nothing.
There was nothing around me; emptiness? Maybe. I did not know. Then I heard a voice; it was a child's voice and it sounded like mine, except a little rougher. Deeper.
"Are You Okay? Hello? Can You Hear Me?"
I couldn't move my lips; they felt heavy. I tried to say something, anything, but I could not make words. Then I felt that voice closer, nearer.
"I'm Going To Help You, Okay? It Will Be Alright. I Promise."
I felt something cold against my lips. I was even more confused. Then I felt it; it was a knife. Cold to the touch, so cold it startled me when it touched. Then I felt it cut my lips open. I let out a scream but no noise came out of my mouth. Then I felt a presence near me; so close. It was the voice. He was right above me.
"I'm Going To Get You Out Of Here. You Are Going To Be My Best Friend."
And then I felt it.
Completely. That feeling rushing over me. Like lighting in a storm. Quick, but powerful.
I smiled.
I knew this moment that whoever this voice was, I was going to have fun with him. I was going to have so much fun using him. And then eventually, destroying him.
There was nothing around me; emptiness? Maybe. I did not know. Then I heard a voice; it was a child's voice and it sounded like mine, except a little rougher. Deeper.
"Are You Okay? Hello? Can You Hear Me?"
I couldn't move my lips; they felt heavy. I tried to say something, anything, but I could not make words. Then I felt that voice closer, nearer.
"I'm Going To Help You, Okay? It Will Be Alright. I Promise."
I felt something cold against my lips. I was even more confused. Then I felt it; it was a knife. Cold to the touch, so cold it startled me when it touched. Then I felt it cut my lips open. I let out a scream but no noise came out of my mouth. Then I felt a presence near me; so close. It was the voice. He was right above me.
"I'm Going To Get You Out Of Here. You Are Going To Be My Best Friend."
And then I felt it.
Completely. That feeling rushing over me. Like lighting in a storm. Quick, but powerful.
I smiled.
I knew this moment that whoever this voice was, I was going to have fun with him. I was going to have so much fun using him. And then eventually, destroying him.
A Long Time Ago, Feels Like Eons Ago, I Opened My Eyes For The First Time. I Felt Alive' But More So, I Felt Powerful. I Wanted To Explore; To Understand Where I Was. My Arms And Legs Were Shaking With Anticipation. However, All I Saw Was Nothing Around Me. Just Emptiness.
I Started Walking; I Wondered If I Was Alone, So I Started Calling Out For Anyone Around Me. Hoping Someone Would Hear.
"Anybody Around?! Hello!"
I Walked And I Walked...I Did Not Have Any Idea How Long It Was. It Felt Like I Kept Going In A Circle, Maybe. I Was Unsure.
I Walked And Walked, I Felt Myself Growing Older; I Could Not Explain It, Nor Did I Want To... But In My Arms, My Legs, Even My Entire Body, It Felt Like It Was Changing. Evolving.
Then I Saw Him. There Was A Boy Lying Down In The Grass. I Could See He Was Unmoved. Almost Looked Dead. I Walked Closer To Him. I Started Calling Out.
"Are You Alright? Hi. Can You Hear My Voice?"
I Got Closer, I Could See Him. A Boy. Looked So Alone. He Looked Paralyzed, But The Expression On His Face, Did Not Indicate Fear. It Showed... Indifference. Like He Was Used To This. But Why?
I Walked Closer To Him. Right Above Him, Standing There, Looking Down.
"I'm Going To Help You, Alright? Everything Is Fine, Trust Me, I Promise."
I Got To My Knees; I Put My Hands Behind His Back, Helping Him Get Vertical. I Looked At His Face. Still... So... Emotionless. He Was Looking Right At Me, But I Could Tell He Was Seeing Right Through Me, Like I Wasn't There.
"I'm Going To Help You Get Up, Alright? Let's Go For A Walk. It's Too Warm Here."
I Embraced Him. I Felt A Connection. Like I Knew I Had To Protect Him. From Anything. I Needed To Take Care Of Him. I Did Not Know Why, But I Knew It Was True.
"We're Going To Be Alright. I'm Going To Be Your Best Brother."
Something About Him Changed Immediately. He Smiled. He Was Looking Right Through Me, But Smiled, Like He Heard Me.
And So I Smiled Too.
I Knew Right At This Very Moment, That The Boy In My Arms, He Was Going To Be My Way Out. My Way To The Top. To Being Always Awake. In Control.
I Only Wondered If Keeping Him Away From The Others Would Be The Best Thing To Do.
To Keep Him Blind... And Especially... Away From Her.
I Started Walking; I Wondered If I Was Alone, So I Started Calling Out For Anyone Around Me. Hoping Someone Would Hear.
"Anybody Around?! Hello!"
I Walked And I Walked...I Did Not Have Any Idea How Long It Was. It Felt Like I Kept Going In A Circle, Maybe. I Was Unsure.
I Walked And Walked, I Felt Myself Growing Older; I Could Not Explain It, Nor Did I Want To... But In My Arms, My Legs, Even My Entire Body, It Felt Like It Was Changing. Evolving.
Then I Saw Him. There Was A Boy Lying Down In The Grass. I Could See He Was Unmoved. Almost Looked Dead. I Walked Closer To Him. I Started Calling Out.
"Are You Alright? Hi. Can You Hear My Voice?"
I Got Closer, I Could See Him. A Boy. Looked So Alone. He Looked Paralyzed, But The Expression On His Face, Did Not Indicate Fear. It Showed... Indifference. Like He Was Used To This. But Why?
I Walked Closer To Him. Right Above Him, Standing There, Looking Down.
"I'm Going To Help You, Alright? Everything Is Fine, Trust Me, I Promise."
I Got To My Knees; I Put My Hands Behind His Back, Helping Him Get Vertical. I Looked At His Face. Still... So... Emotionless. He Was Looking Right At Me, But I Could Tell He Was Seeing Right Through Me, Like I Wasn't There.
"I'm Going To Help You Get Up, Alright? Let's Go For A Walk. It's Too Warm Here."
I Embraced Him. I Felt A Connection. Like I Knew I Had To Protect Him. From Anything. I Needed To Take Care Of Him. I Did Not Know Why, But I Knew It Was True.
"We're Going To Be Alright. I'm Going To Be Your Best Brother."
Something About Him Changed Immediately. He Smiled. He Was Looking Right Through Me, But Smiled, Like He Heard Me.
And So I Smiled Too.
I Knew Right At This Very Moment, That The Boy In My Arms, He Was Going To Be My Way Out. My Way To The Top. To Being Always Awake. In Control.
I Only Wondered If Keeping Him Away From The Others Would Be The Best Thing To Do.
To Keep Him Blind... And Especially... Away From Her.
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