Lifeline

"Perdi todos mis adioses,
cuando te deje ir,
yo intente con brazos abiertos,
pero no pude ver,
y baje en espiral,
baje en espiral."

So it's my turn,
I've been avoiding this for too long,
lo se, lo siento,
but I can still feel you burn,
a fire that just belongs.

No se como decirtelo,
how to write the right words,
looking at your photos,
knives pierce my heart,
big knives and swords.

And then it stops me,
cuts me cold,
my hand is frozen,
​I'm in a choke-hold.

Dona, dime que haces,
are you running around free,
I have your paw-print made of ashes.

A lock of hair,
your leather coat,
and your smell still chokes my throat.

So I'm pulled into darkness,
where I will hear your bark,
do I then dare close my eyes,
dare I swim with the sharks?

This is me spiraling,
out of control,
I still curse at the skies,
yell at God,
as I turn to brown coal.

I saw your partner today,
Shadow is doing good,
getting old as they say.

And then I stared into his eyes,
held his head close,
I remembered how it felt,
when you looked at me,
how a dog just knows.

I'm stuck in silence,
the music stopped playing,
and when your bark faded,
too much brotherly slaying.

I always wondered if you could have talked,
what would you had said to me?
Would you tell me now to keep praying?

Chase me in my dreams,
I'm sick of crying.

The rules have changed,
wish you were here,
you'd understand...

...why I've been avoiding writing you this,
​I'm stuck in an island.

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