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Mi Calma

11/29/2018

Chasing ghosts,
riding in the dark,
finding myself lost,
I need my spark.

Lejos de ti,
entre las sombras,
busco un si,
para acabar mis obras.

Keep chasing the gods,
I know I'm close,
followed a trail, beat their odds,
or is it a trap, who knows?

Tengo una foto en mi dashboard,
sus labios me sonrien,
keeps me moving forward,
y sus ojos se ríen.

Pero lo hago por ti,
so I keep riding,
hasta que los encuentre,
your smile always shining.

I wonder how you are doing,
outside my world,
wishing I had another viewing,
sneak peek at you curled--
In bed, at peace.

I'll make this war cease.

I carry with me whispers,
tu voz, hermosa,
cantando una melodia,
Mi Reina, preciosa.

Te escucho cantando,
es esto realidad?
O es otra memoria,
miles apart?

But I keep driving,
encontrare a Cassandra,
estoy cerca,
your voice is my mantra.

And I play along with air guitar,
hitting each tone,
as we're still apart.

But I know I will come back to you,
once I wake,
I'm Ghost Rider,
and you're my Quake.

Our hearts won't ache.

A long time, it seems,
last I laid eyes on you,
now I have but dreams,
to guide me back too.

Pero aun escucho tu voz,
cantando melodias across
the window and time,
I miss you every time.

You're the fire in my bones, Reina,
you're the fragments in my soul,
you're the whispers in between screams,
you are the pieces that make me whole.

Te amo.

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Antithesis

10/10/2018

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R, X, S o T,
cada letra,
cuando, como, donde,
que?
Dentro de la mente sobra el "porque."

H, Z, P, o F,
in the end,
who is El Jefe?

Aun me acuerdo como,
when and where,
te vi primero,
grinning like a hero.
But hero you weren't.

Siempre me solias decir,
"tienes que sobrevivir,"
no matter what happens,
it is you who is here.

You were angry,
he failed you as a teacher,
now you were rotten,
didn't feel any richer.

Entonces la angustia de devoro,
te enterro en rabia,
y te convertiste en historia de horror.

Lo negro te favorecio,
y la sombra de T te aprecio.

Siempre querias ser como el,
no hay duda,
now you turned into that monster,
"living la vida cruda."

And you tried to do the same to me,
pobrecito,
should have stayed away,
era mi credo.

But you still attached yourself to me,
tried to sell me a good story,
all we knew was tales of heroes,
and you of villains that were never sorry.

You wanted everything around you to rot,
because like I said,
hero you were not.

Pero yo era bien terco,
nunca quize escucharte,
pues tenia mejores cosas que hacer,
come up with a plan para partirte aparte.

Leer la biblia,
ir a misa,
pedirle a Dios que me ayude acordar,
damn the amnesia.

You were close to me,
I could feel you,
telling me what to do,
whispering in my ear,
"I'll undo you too."

Pero yo tenia ayuda,
aunque poca fuese,
his name started con una S.

He only saw what was happening,
he never got involved,
pero el decia siempre,
careful with the black door.

So I became my own hero in my own story,
I had to stay away from you,
believe me,
I am not sorry.

I had to burn away the sin,
that's true,
so I went on a mission to find the cure.

S me dijo siempre,
"cuidado ahi viene el monstro,"
he will partirte el rostro.

So I learned how to find your weakness,
again, I am not sorry,
R, hermano, I am simply the cure for your sickness.

I will cleanse you,
and we will be fine,
look en mis ojos,
let me bring out that shine.

But you were stubborn,
and went to war,
tried to hurt T,
succeeded and the bell could not be unrung.

Y ahora? Que sucedera?
Vas a marchar a guerra otra vez?
O tendre que prender fuego,
en mi calabera?

Dimelo, pronto,
pues no soy tonto,
I know you seek justice,
even though you already won,
what other bell will you ring to be unrung?

No one knows better how it is to burn,
than the one that lives in the volcano,
where he constantly turns.

So I guess I get your point of view,
that's true,
no justifica el golpe a T,
we were all once a crew.

Todos nosotros,
juntos,
y ahora divididos,
porque?
Sera asi hasta que seamos difuntos?

Are we destined to fight forever?
Will one of these battles finally...
sever?
Our bones and minds.
Until there is nothing but the past to leave behind?

Te guste o no,
los tres estaremos unidos,
merely a draw of luck,
wait, I don't believe it,
luck es lo prohibido.

I'll just keep riding,
that's what I know,
drive onto the sunset,
and watch from afar that glow.

Because I am done playing along with you,
S y yo tenemos cosas que hacer,
that's true.

So please don't try and control us,
te lo prometo,
if you do,
I'll make a fuss.

Observation: something is different about X and R.
Deduction: their light of friendship seems more apart.
Solution(?): can I make them restart?

Notes: it seems we're starting another cycle, that is soon, but what I do not know, is how will this work, or will their song always play out of tune?

Cure(?): I have to see if Doc can help,
or someone else maybe? I am not sure what to do, this time our future is hazy.

Story: there are tales of heroes, villains, monsters and gods,
ones who battle each other, and against all odds. Since the beginning, all we've had are these stories we tell, nothing ever ending so well. In between the chaos, love and the pain, there is always something that is to be gained. But since the beginning, now in the present as well, I am never to be involved, only a bystander, recording and writing down all the hell. I am just an observant, I am the keeper of scrolls, my collection not as big as the library's, but they're just as old.

End: there is no reason for me to get involved, is what I'm trying to say, but there is something that's changed, something in the way. Something big, or is it new? How is it that it has grew? It's still young and careless, last I knew him, interested in absolving sin? Then please come on in.

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Reina, te lo digo.

10/9/2018

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Atrapado en la memoria, solia ser verdad, pero algo raro sucedio,
me encontre en soledad.

I got trapped in a memory, it seemed true, but something about it rang skewed.

Destruyo la imagen,
se fue pronto,
me di cuenta de trucos,
pues yo no soy tonto.

It shattered the image, it faded soon, I noticed the tricks too.

Tenia que verlo por mi mismo, buscar por The Queen, necesitaba quien me saque del abismo, and in between.

I had to see it for myself, search for La Reina, I needed help.

Se fue el Rey,
pero no fue olvidado,
necesitaba al Protector,
al quemado.

The Host was gone,
but not forgotten,
I needed my Protector,
he who was rotten.

Donde estaba el Guardian?
No lo supe,
atrapado en este cuarto,
necesito mandar noticias para que no se preocupe.

Where was my Guardian,
I did not know,
stuck in a room,
no light no glow.

Entonces yo hize lo que pude,
reze y pedi ayuda de Dios,
hasta que el tiempo paso,
y una ventana se abrio y escuche una voz.

So I did what I could,
prayed and asked for God's help,
time passed forever gone,
then hope gave me something to count on.

Me lo encontre,
ahi estaba solo pero silvando,
era el Faraon,
guiando.

Then I found him,
alone but whistling,
Pharaoh,
all I had to do was listen.

Me llevo lejos,
no sabia donde,
estaba en un trance,
no hablaba, solo silvava,
traeria percance.

He took me far,
didn't know where,
it's like he was hypnotized,
only whistled,
so I had to advance.

Pero era una trampa,
Faraon no era,
era otro verde,
pero imposible de diferenciar,
hasta que todo se comenzo a congelar.

It was a trap,
Pharaoh wasn't he,
he was another green,
impossible to tell,
until everything around me froze to hell.

Estaba frozen,
I could not move.
Me atrapo como presa,
he had something to prove.

I saw something in his eyes,
estaban frios,
"the rest are waiting,"
me dijo.

When I ran into Roman,
el no era igual,
he was changed--
diferente.

Algo sucedio con su mente.

I had to fight him to run,
wouldn't even recognize me,
speaking like a loon.

I tried to get out, Reina,
perdi el tiempo,
y tanto sucedio,
pero cuando Javier me congelo,
ahi mi escape termino.

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Mi Estrella del Norte

5/12/2018

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Cuando pienso en ti,
el aire me ahoga,
cuando escucho tu voz,
el tiempo se congela en el ahora.

Pueden ser dias, horas,
o talvez meses,
pero siempre espero a robarme otro momento contigo,
aunque cueste tanto a veces.

Cuando te escucho reir,
cuando te veo sonreir,
cuando mi estrella del norte me guia,
yo vivo contento en ese dia.

Hermosa, mujer,
yo te quiero.

Mi estrella del norte,
por ti,
yo espero.

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Un Minuto

11/10/2017

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Un minuto de silencio,
un minuto de soledad,
como es posible,
que tengo que esperar?

Pero aqui veo lo que sucede,
y yo siento cuando desaparece,
tanto que decir,
tanto que soñar,
pero al regreso espero,
espero por ella para amar.

Silence in a minute,
solitude from afar,
as I enter the aether,
I say goodnight.

And here I enter,
feel inside my heart,
how it's burning,
yearning for la Reina's heart.

Entro por las paredes de my mind,
rezando que yo la pueda find.
Encontrarla entre las lineas y puertas,
encontrar su fuego, que me aprieta.

Keeps me warm and safe,
I only pray I am not late.

La Reina canta y baila en mi cuarto,
pero afuera la comparto.

So I hold my hand against the glass,
I peer through the mirror,
where is my beautiful lass?

I want to hold her forever,
keep the light inside from fading,
bring her with me to the aether,
where there's no more aching.

And I feel the storm brewing,
muchos cambios se vienen,
and the witness in the garden prays along,
asi continuo my canción.

Espero que ella este bien,
cuando la dejo de noche,
sending besos her way,
I only wish I could stay.

But as my skin peels and the fire starts,
skull and bone all that's left,
that is my new form,
my work of art.

And I will return soon,
mi Reina,
mujer amorosa,
my burning heart.

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Isla.

10/25/2017

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Stuck on an island,
I am,
staring at the sky,
counting grains of sand.

En la isla del olvido,
yo estoy,
rezando al cielo,
con arena entre mis pies.

El mar es la musica,
aqui,
esperando tu sonido,
alli.

Night falls on me,
dark,
time to make a fire,
surrounded...
sharks.

Someone send me smoke signals,
please,
tell me she's okay--
Sis?

Dime, cuentame todo,
cuando puedo verla,
ella.

Is this enough,
paid dues?
Walk a mile in her shoes.

Let me out,
I need her flame,
her fire's warmth,
mine's without.

Cuento los minutos,
solo,
cuento los granos de arena,
todo.

Then her fire lights my way,
off the island,
I want her to stay.

Pero cada uno con su turno,
justo,
nuevas reglas,
sino es injusto.

Close your eyes,
dime,
cuando regreso,
in time.

So I'll leave you a gift,
porque te amo,
until next we speak,
I return to sand,
como un grano.

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July 30th, 2017

7/30/2017

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En Las Vegas la ruleta,
en New York la soledad,
en la China una etiqueta,
Beijing la libertad.
Iba el cojo en su muleta
el sicario a perseguir,
otra misa haciendo dieta,
todos a sobrevivir.

Un farol alumbra un beso,
hay una gato en el placar,
y la artritis a los huesos,
y el reloj siempre a contar.

Vives para morir,
respira fuerte, solo te queda huir.
No busques suerte,
canta en vez de llorar.
Quieres ser inmune a todo lo que duela.

Quiero ser lo que no he sido,
sepultar lo que se fue,
aprender de lo podrido,
tanta agua y tanta sed.

Me cansé de estar cansado,
de un carnet de identidad,
depender de un diputado,
otra hormiga en la ciudad.

Vives para morir,
respira fuerte,
solo te queda huir.
No busques suerte,
canta en vez de llorar.
Quieres ser inmune a todo lo que duela.

Vives para morir,
respira fuerte, solo te queda huir.
No busques suerte,
canta en vez de llorar.
Quieres ser inmune a todo lo que duela.

Vives para morir,
respira fuerte, solo te queda huir.
No busques suerte,
canta en vez de llorar.
Quieres ser inmune a todo lo que duela.

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Mi Calma

Antithesis

Reina, te lo digo.

Mi Estrella del Norte

Un Minuto

Isla.

July 30th, 2017

Protector.

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