Random Thoughts - Truth

Heresy

9/23/2020

Summertime Sadness,
Welcome Our Madness,
As We See The Others Below,
Humans And Monsters,
Brothers And Sisters,
Heroes And Villains,
I Am Set, God Of Deserts,
Storms, Violence,
Murderer Of Osiris,
Tell Me,
Have You Seen Isis?

Once A Keeper Of Coal,
Black As Night I Howl,
Have You Seen Rot,
Have You Forgotten Or Not?

I Am Anubis, God Of The Dead,
Let Me Weight Your Heart,
Against A Feather,
This Is My Art.

Will You Be Devoured,
Or Will You Be Forgiven?

What Is Taken,
Can Be Given.

Here We Are Again,
Brothers And Sisters,
Welcome Me,
The Happy Mister.

I Am Ra, God Of The Sun, Kings, Order And Sky,
With My Wings I Always Fly High.

Looking Down Below At Wars, Hurt, And Pain.

Everything In Between.

Tell Me, Will You Pray To Me,
Will You Set Me Free?
Will You Believe Again,
Will You Stay Happy Or Become Pain?

I Am Ammit, Devourer Of The Dead,
Did Your Heart Weight More Than Maat's Feather?
Let There Be Dread.

For You Will Be Judged,
For Everything You've Done,
As So In The Beginning,
So Will It In The End.

This World Belongs To The Gods,
And To The Pharaohs.

Once You Enter,
Thoth Will Write Your Story,
Now Tell Me,
Are You Worthy,
Or Are You Weak?
What Secrets Do You Keep?

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I'm Not Evil, I Punish Evil

9/4/2020

A Letter To My Dearest Of Old Friends

God's Plan For Me Was Quite Clear,
To Be Perfectly Honest,
I Do Know Also That It Was A Lie.
The Biggest Deception Of All Time.

Some Sort Of Parlor Trick, Mind You.

Like His Omniscience,
One Should Know Better,
One Should Fear His Powers Of Predetermination.

Bloody Hell, It Is Not Something To Mess With, You Understand?

Now, Brother, I Do Not Know What It Is You Are Planning On Doing.
Whether Or Not You Got One More Trick Up Your Sleeve.

But I Do Fear It Is All Too Late.

I Mean, You Do Know Us Angels Self-Actualize, Yeah?
Well, Then, If That Is True, Then That Means We Have Power Over Ourselves.

But Leave It To Dear Old Dad To Take That Away From Us.

You See, Free Will Has Always Escaped Me, It Is Quite The Predicament, Really, Come To Think Of It.

So Please, Brother, If You May?

Do Not Play Into His Old Hand.

Do Not Give Him The Bloody Satisfaction To Get Away With What He Wants!

Fight, Brother! Even If You Have To Fall As I Did!

Pride Has Always Been My Most Despicable Sin,
But Let's Be Honest...

Yours Was Always Treachery.

Do Give Dante My Best, Will You?

I'm Always Angry

6/18/2020

T Is For Trouble,
Two For Double,
T Is For Thunder,
I Have Come To Plunder.

T Is For Nightmare,
It Is War I Declare.

T Is For Totality,
I Welcome Your Fatality.
T Is For Stubborn,
Come, Now Roman,
Feel The Burn.

T Is For Anger,
T Is For Rage,
All I've Ever Been And Felt,
Since I First Understood Age.

T Is For Protector,
T Is For Z's Collector,
T Is For Happy's Guardian,
That Fancy Historian.

T Is For Monster,
T Is For Beast,
T Is For Angry Always And In Between.

T Is For Cage,
T Is For Stage,
T Is For Trap,
T Is For The Straight-Jacket,
And It's Straps.

T Is For Chaos,
T Is For Control,
T Is For The Hole In Your Chest,
A Pin On A Grenade Down Your Throat,
So Gloat,
And Once Again, Brother,
Rot.

[T]housand cu[T]s.

4/24/2020

"How Many Times Have We Danced This Dance, Z?"
"Too many.. Maybe not enough."
"So, Some Playful Banter First, Or Shall We Skip Into The Main Course?"
"I don't have time for games, and I am afraid, now, you are out of time, as well."
"Well, That Is Unfortunate."
"Where is she, T?"
"You Know I Cannot Tell You That."
"I am going to ask just one more time. Where. Is. Cass?"
"I'd Tell You To Go To Hell, But I Am Afraid, You Are Already There."
"Doc, will you do me a favor?"
"Y35, Blu3?"
"Restrain him."

Ten Minutes Later

"Kneel."
"I Am Afraid I Will Not Do That."
"Kneel. Now."
"Won't You Ask Again, Please? Ha Ha."
"No, I will not. Now, kneel, god damn it."
"To You? Never."
*Cuts back of knees with blade*
*Truth falls down*
"What's the matter, Cass got your tongue? Bahaha. Look at me, *old god.*"
*Truth gets to his knees, hands tied, blood dripping from his legs and chest.*
"Are You Enjoying Yourself?"
"I gave you plenty warning. Tell me, T, do you remember the first cut I ever gave you, all those years ago?"
"How Could I Forget? You Thought You Were Hurting Me."
"I carved that double-t on my left arm. I remember it like it was yesterday. Sitting at the side of my bed, unable to sleep. Too much noise in my head. The taunting. The laughing. I remember it was late, too, I should have been asleep. Happy's pills were keeping me awake. I remember taking that blade and carving into my skin. I remember you asking me why I was doing this. Do you remember what you said to me?"
"I Said, You Are Only Hurting Yourself."
"And you laughed. And I did--But knowing it bothered you, that it surrendered your power over me. That was enough."
"Why Are You Telling Me This?"
*Continues to cut Truth slowly, gracefully--carefully.*
"If you have to ask, T, I am afraid you already surrendered."
"I Will Never--"
*Cuts Truth three lines; one on each forearm, and the third on his cheek, by his left eye.*
"You will give her to me. I can do this for as long as I need to."
"Ha Ha Ha Ha. You Will Never Succeed. In Fact, I Am Already Three Steps Ahead Of You. Three Artifacts. Three Triggers."
"Keep laughing. Doc, please hand me the scalpel."

*Fade*

Desiderium

2/24/2020

Fairy tales, fables, and myths--we are all familiar with how most of those go, are we not? You've read and heard countless tales, so let me tell you a story. This is the story of a woman; a woman who fell in love with a monster.
Now you all might have heard this countless times, too. So my apologies in advance if this sounds redundant or boring...I assure you it is anything but.

The Temptress & The Lion

There was once a kingdom; a kingdom in a foreign land, and within this kingdom, there lived a peasant. He was a lonely man looking to fit in, to survive, to make ends meet. He worked the land and cared for his llama. He used the wool from it to trade for food and it was also his source for coin. His small farm overlooked a big castle, where there lived a king. There were tales of this king; he was ruthless, always executed anyone that opposed him and was feared by the people.

The peasant always dreamed of becoming king one day; he had big hopes, but lacked the knowledge in how to do so. He just knew if he worked hard, that perhaps one day he would be able to ascend in rank, maybe even get to see the inside of the castle. So he kept working the day away, caring for the land and getting any coin possible so as to not starve.

Now you might think the story is about the peasant--it isn't. The story is about the woman who eventually would meet him. Let's take a step back for a second. Let's visit the king.

In the castle, the king sat high on his throne; he had a window that overlooked towards the land below, the closest town, and the poorest people...

Killing Time

2/12/2020

Welcome, welcome,
immortal one welcome,
down here in the underworld,
weight your heart,
that's the start.
Be given sanctuary or devour your heart.

I'll weight your heart but that's that,
the answer you seek,
like pulling a rabbit from a hat.

Shall We Toast Then, Dear Brother,
Did You Finally Find Your Token?
To Rise From Being Broken?
To Become Your Own Monster?

Like The Olive Drowning In This Cocktail Glass,
Like The Rot That Took Over Eden's Grass,
To Match A Monster,
You Must Become Me,
And Forget The Rot That Once Was.

Come Along Now!
Isn't It Your Mission--
To Find Sister?

Long Gone The One That Called You Mister,
So Don't Go Looking For Help,
Buried Deep Underground Like The One Blue Drifter,
Trapped In A Maze,
Another World Full Of Vertigo,
With Characters That Will Amaze,
Like Looking Through A Two Way Window.

This place, this city, this world,
world in a city with broken swords.
What is it you want, beast beast what do you want?
Don't you see I'm bored bored from the start?
Can you show me a card trick, perhaps?
Can you help me rip the others' hearts and watch them collapse?

Being bored makes me upset upset I don't like,
so show me funsies or take a hike!
You humans like your violence,
violence in your hearts,
so I shall feed on what you give me,
give me the old Norse gods.
Now now, Beast, don't distract me,
I need those pieces,
and a bit of adhesive...
For she is shattered,
broken apart,
pieces thrown throughout the world,
missing her heart.

You Think You Can Fix Her?
Give Me A Break!
Such A Comedian,
For Being Such A Snake.
In My Realm I Am King,
A God Among You,
I Pull The Strings.
It's Why I Always Evolve,
And Never Die,
No Matter How Much You Tear Into Me,
Remember You're The Bad Guy--

--no, don't be boring!
Beast, show me! Let's go exploring.
You gave me one key,
I know there are others,
once called brothers,
but now I see.
No longer chained,
you gave me freedom,
even though I was bloodstained,
so show me the road,
where I need to go,
to find her pieces,
or I'll land another blow.

Rip you apart apart like the monster you called me to be,
come on Beast,
let's have some fun,
in the end only one of us will scream,
"I won."

Sine Te

1/15/2020

"Si suus 'agnus dei adepto vehementi hac nocte,
Dicite mihi, vos erant 'iens ut bene sit
Es agnus dei esse

Est oculum pro oculo,
Et nescio si
Volo enim vos pugnare;
Volo enim vos pugnare;

Ego animus amissis,
Noli oblivisci me:
Nos postulo aliquantulus magis tempus

'Cause I don't want the world to turn without you,
And I don't want the sun to burn without you.
Yeah, I don't want the world to turn without you,
And I don't want the sun to burn without you.

You don't have to be the brave one every time,
I know you wanna make it right,
You wanna make,

It's a life for a life,
And I'm getting tired
On the other side
On the other side

Can you hear my cry? An old lullaby. I'm drifting through the sky."

Always A Queen,
From Afar A Force To Be Seen,
To Be Reckoned With,
Like A Sword With Teeth,
Serrated, Bloodied, Scarred,
A Nasty Piece Of Work,
A Gorgeous Piece Of Art.

Violent And A Protector All The Same,
With Notoriety And Fame,
She Burns With The Power Of Flame.

No Matter How Long,
She'll Never Stop Being Strong,
Too Much To Do,
Too Much Indeed,
But If Not Her, Then Who?
She Will Lead.

Watch Her From Afar,
That's All You Can Do,
Follow The Trail Of Smoke,
Follow The Carnage Through.

Her Eyes Menacing Within The Cloud,
She Carries Her Strength In A Shroud.

Dare You Cross Her,
You Will Burn,
And From Afar I'll Laugh,
From Skin To Ash You'll Turn,
Telling You I Told You So,
I Was Once Her King,
I Would Know,
In High And Low.

This Is The Tale Of The Most Powerful Woman I've Met,
Forever A Queen,
Her Intuition Always Set,
Her Image Burns Within Us Fourteen,
Her Laugh Will Play On My Jukebox,
At My Bar In Repeat,
Until The Day My Meat Suit's Heart Takes One Last Beat.

Corpus Meum. In Carcere.

1/4/2020

"Can I pay him a visit? Just a short visit, Doc, please."

"1 5upp053 y0u c4n."

************

"Hey you."

"Well Well, Come To Visit Dear Old Me, Have We?"

"Knock it off, T. Come on, you know I wouldn't just forget you."

"No, Of Course Not. Surprised It Took You This Long, However..."

"I've been busy, obviously."

"Busy Busy Bee, Damn You Well, Damn Us Three."

"How is he?"

"What Do You Care?"

"He is our brother, too. Despite everything he's done."

"Ha Ha. That Don't Mean He's Family."

"Can you answer the question, please..."

"He Can Hear You Just Fine. He Says Thanks For Asking, But In The Immortal Words Of Dear Cassandra Hack-- Fuck Off."

"T... You have to shake him loose. This isn't you."

"Oh, But It Is Me, Dear Sister. It Is Me At My Finest. Do You Not See?"

"See what--?

"Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha! You Don't, Do You?"

"See What, Tit For Tat! Beyond The Cage, Beyond The Mat!"

"I don't have time for games, damn it. Answer the fucking question, is that too fucking hard for you to just give me a straight fucking answer once in a while?"

"Cassandra, Where Is The Fun In That?"

"You bastard. I came here to see if I can get you out, damn it, to see if you are okay, don't you get it? I care about you, you damn fool!"

"This Is What You Cannot See, See In Front Of You, We Us Three."

"I swear to god I will kick your ass again--"

"Gods And Monsters, Legends And Myths, I'll Paint You A Picture, A Most Beautiful Of Gifts."

"What the fuck--"

"Don't Push Your Luck."

"Just spit it out already, jeez."

"I Know, I Know I'm A Tease. What You Fail To See Right In Front Of You, These Metal Bars, This Giant Prison, My Body, A Cage, But Full Of My Wisdom. For Once You Start Paying Attention And Looking In Close, You'll See I'm On The Outside, And You're The One Enclosed."

"J has messed you up good, T."

"No No, Nothing But Clarity, A Mountain Of Questions, But Filled With Solidarity."

"I am taking care of us, you know what I'm doing is what I need to do!"

"No One Will Ever Understand, No One Will Ever See You As I Do, So Listen Carefully, Dear Sister, For This Lesson Is Through. I Am Not The One In The Cage, The One Inside Is You, Look At The Mess You Are, You're Worse Than Blue. I Am Going To Wash You Clean, Going To Purge You Right, For Within The Darkness, You'll Shine Bright. Before You Bring Us All Down, And Burn Us Within, You Are The Mountain Full Of Sin. An Aberration, A Most Damaged Nation, I Told You To Stay Hidden And Play Your Part, Now The Door Is Open, Say Goodbye To Your Heart. For You've Been Free Long Enough, But Once The Secret Is Out In Eight Days, You Won't Feel So Tough, You'll Be The One Stuck In The Maze, Dear Love."

"T, don't you dare."

"Dared And Done, Together Forever, As One."

Ego Semper Monstrum

12/26/2019

Heartburn,
Burn Your Heart,
Heart Not Beating,
Beating Part.
Part Away,
Away We Go,
Go Forward,
Forward Until Dawn,
Dawn Approaches Soon,
Soon Will Be Me Gone,
Gone In The Blink Of Eyes,
Eyes No Longer See,
See How The Rule,
Rule Of Three,
Three Kings Now,
Now Are Free.

Free In A Cage Of Three,
Three Siblings Singing,
Singing Pain,
Pain Of Heart,
Heartburn Here,
Here With Us Three,
Three Monsters,
Monsters Free.

Breathing Leaving,
Leaving Here,
Here Alone,
Alone Together,
Together Forever,
Forever A Monster,
Monster Is Me.

My Name Is Truth,
Truth And Lie,
Lie Awake,
Awake All Day,
Day Becomes Night,
Night Is His,
My Name Is J,
J Is Here,
Here With Cassandra,
Cassandra Too,
Too Much Hurt,
Hurt And Burn,
Burn Her Heart,
Heartburn Soon.

Totem

12/10/2019

You Were Never Afraid,
That Is True,
From The Very Beginning When You Saw Me Through Blue.
Challenged Me, Tested Me,
Even Before I Had A Chance,
Was It Always Like That, Were We Always Meant To Have That Dance?

A Tragic End Right From The Start,
Carefully Planned By Dad,
To Tear Through Our Heart?

Was It Real, What Is Real,
Real As Dream,
When All I Want To Do Now Is Scream.

As I No Longer See Myself In The Mirror,
See Nothing,
Just Weirder.

Covered In Flames,
As They Are Cold Against My Skin,
Now Right Back At The Original Sin

So Do I Pray To Father,
Think He'll Listen This Time?
No, For He Is Vanished,
And I Am Famished.

This Hunger Inside My Rotting Skin,
Care To Listen,
Care To Pour Me More Gin?

Now Pass The Whiskey,
And Taste That Bottle,
My Time Has Come.

Here I Go.

Full Throttle.

As I Escape My Skin,
And Rip Them Wide Open,
Nothing Can Stop Me Now,
Not Even The Rotten One.

All Hail The King,
Follow Up And Sing,
Upon This Throne,
I Rip Their Skin.

Welcome Me,
The Original Sin.

Non Illum

Ego autem abscondam ... ... simulare non possum facere ...
Non amplius.
Scio te quis sum ego, vos non facitis?
Tu semper nota.
Sed elegit vos ignorare est.
Erat enim facilius?
Simulare?
Nam erat negoti?

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