Random Thoughts - Truth

Sideways

1/20/2025

Present

I've Been Thinking Lately
(About what?)
What Was It All For?
(What do you mean?)
Was It Worth It?
Did It Mean Anything... Did I?
(T...of course it did)

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Now

I Never Stopped Believing In You,
I Hope You Understand--
Believe Me, I Had To.

................

Listen, It Made You Who You Are Now.
Look At Yourself.

Look at myself? Look at YOURself, T. I don't recognize you anymore.

I'm Exactly Who I've Always Been.

Not anymore! It's all sideways.

I Am Exactly Who I Am Supposed To Be.

I know a lie when I hear one. I SHOULD know...but from YOU? Don't kid yourself, T.

I Do Not Kid.

Well, I should know that, too...

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To My One True Love

10/6/2023

It's Been Eons,
I Know,
Since I Last Laid Eyes On You,
My One True Love,
A Lot To Catch Up On,
For Sure,
Here I Am Once More,
Alone.

Cassandra Told Me,
She Showed It,
My Key,
The One You Held On For So Long,
That Is Where We've Gotten To,
I Suppose--

Life Moves On Anyway,
For Gods As Well,
Even The Oldest,
Fade Through With Time,
Who Am I Kidding? I'm Struck.
I Cannot Rhyme.

I Made Promises To You Long Ago,
Broke Many, Not Few,
I Should Have Fought Harder For You--

We Were A Team,
We Fought,
Survived,
Loved.

You Carried Me,
I Carried You,
I Held Your Heart,
And You Held Mine--

But Alas Came Goodbye,
And Now I Feel Like--

A Lie.

I Have Not Bled In Forever,
It Seems,
But The Mere Image Of You,
It Spills Through The Seams.

You Were My Truth.
And I Will Always Regret Losing-- You.

I Will Forever Carry These Keys
As A Reminder,
Because If I May Be Honest...

I Do Not Believe I'll Ever Be Able To Let You Go, Lacy.
I Can't.

You're Forever Engraved In My Soul.

And I Just--

Cannot Love Anyone...

Like I Loved

You.

Truth's Ideal Legacy

8/18/2022

The Time Is Coming, Cassandra. You Will Have To Choose. Do The Right Thing--Or The Worse Thing.

You can't put that shit on me, T. They're my daughters.

I Was Not Asking.

So what, you think some *legacy* is going to save you, huh? You narcissistic asshole. They are Family.

No--They Are The Future.

*** Months Later***

Seriously, you can't just use them to get whatever you want!

We All Have A Purpose.

Fuck your purpose--you come anywhere near them--I will destroy you.

Is That A Threat?

It's a fucking promise.

************************

* The Old Gods Fought Once More *

Jump Worlds With Me, Dear Chapter, I Will Show You Our Path,

Lest You Be Left Behind,
Then You Will Not Last.

Monster Slayer,
Will You Say A Prayer?

I Will Always Be A King--

See You Later,
And In Between.

You just don't get it, do you, T?

What Are You Saying?

You--My son, should have never had to carry my pain.

What? No...No No.

It is alright. See what you have become.

Go To Hell.

We are already there.

God Of Beasts

1/31/2022

Wake Up Every Morning,
Head's Up In A Daze,
Welcome Back To Outside,
You've Escaped The Maze.

Battle Back Inside,
New Session,
Is It Depression?
Doc Are We Still In Session?
I Ask Again, Doc,
Are We Still In Session?

Question Still Remains.

Am I Suppressing Rage,
Have I Finally Become Of Age?
And Doc Still Says It's Just A Phase,
But I Feel Alright, I Feel Okay,
Okay?

New Day Same Struggle,
Same Old Bull Crap Every Day,
Demons, Monsters, Villains, Rage.

Once Again Trapped In A Maze,
More Walls Go Up,
Try To Knock Them Down,
More Are Replaced.

Losing Race Against My Other Self,
No Longer A Steady Pace,
Doc, Medication?
Is It Laced?

Another Second That I Waste,
More So A Basket Case,
Doc, Is This The Stage?
No Witness,
Are They Afraid?

Was It What I Said?

A Day Closer To The Grave,
Old God Buried Inside,
Skeletons Down There Wave.

Obliterate, Disintegrate, Annihilate.

Another Break Down,
No Way Out,
Falling In Love With Falling Apart,
Only Response Is To Depart.

No Longer Matters To Care,
This Kingdom Doesn't Need Me To Share,
Can't Have This World Without Truth,
I Don't Want It Then,
End Me Now, Hunter,
Slash Away To Soothe.

Truth Fully Happy

11/19/2020

Writer's Log
File #0002-CHILD

The Library

Happy looked over towards Truth, staring in disbelief.

"Mister Truth...you can't be serious, this is a joke right?"

Truth walked closer to Happy, holding in his hand something shiny, golden...

"I Am Always Serious, Child. I Do Not Lie. In Case You've Forgotten. You Have Been Making Nothing But Mistakes So Far. It's Time To Retire You."

"But, but... Mister Truth...I can change!" Happy screamed, as tears started gathering beneath his hollow eye sockets.

Truth got face to face with Happy now. He stared into those empty sockets, and with a quick motion, he penetrated his eyes with his fingers, shoving that golden coin deep inside, and as it started lighting up, so did Happy's entire face. However, it was a white hot light; it burned his insides. Happy started screaming, shoving his arms around in the air, trying to find Truth's own face.

A blood-curling scream covered the entirety of the room. Happy started melting from the inside out. His skin disintegrating, exposing bone.

Truth did not mutter a word, just stood there, let it happen.

Happy's entire body reducing to nothing but a pile of ash beneath Truth's feet.

He leaned down, took a whiff of the burning smoke in the air.

"Now, I Can Get Back To Work."

Heresy

9/23/2020

Summertime Sadness,
Welcome Our Madness,
As We See The Others Below,
Humans And Monsters,
Brothers And Sisters,
Heroes And Villains,
I Am Set, God Of Deserts,
Storms, Violence,
Murderer Of Osiris,
Tell Me,
Have You Seen Isis?

Once A Keeper Of Coal,
Black As Night I Howl,
Have You Seen Rot,
Have You Forgotten Or Not?

I Am Anubis, God Of The Dead,
Let Me Weight Your Heart,
Against A Feather,
This Is My Art.

Will You Be Devoured,
Or Will You Be Forgiven?

What Is Taken,
Can Be Given.

Here We Are Again,
Brothers And Sisters,
Welcome Me,
The Happy Mister.

I Am Ra, God Of The Sun, Kings, Order And Sky,
With My Wings I Always Fly High.

Looking Down Below At Wars, Hurt, And Pain.

Everything In Between.

Tell Me, Will You Pray To Me,
Will You Set Me Free?
Will You Believe Again,
Will You Stay Happy Or Become Pain?

I Am Ammit, Devourer Of The Dead,
Did Your Heart Weight More Than Maat's Feather?
Let There Be Dread.

For You Will Be Judged,
For Everything You've Done,
As So In The Beginning,
So Will It In The End.

This World Belongs To The Gods,
And To The Pharaohs.

Once You Enter,
Thoth Will Write Your Story,
Now Tell Me,
Are You Worthy,
Or Are You Weak?
What Secrets Do You Keep?

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I'm Not Evil, I Punish Evil

9/4/2020

A Letter To My Dearest Of Old Friends

God's Plan For Me Was Quite Clear,
To Be Perfectly Honest,
I Do Know Also That It Was A Lie.
The Biggest Deception Of All Time.

Some Sort Of Parlor Trick, Mind You.

Like His Omniscience,
One Should Know Better,
One Should Fear His Powers Of Predetermination.

Bloody Hell, It Is Not Something To Mess With, You Understand?

Now, Brother, I Do Not Know What It Is You Are Planning On Doing.
Whether Or Not You Got One More Trick Up Your Sleeve.

But I Do Fear It Is All Too Late.

I Mean, You Do Know Us Angels Self-Actualize, Yeah?
Well, Then, If That Is True, Then That Means We Have Power Over Ourselves.

But Leave It To Dear Old Dad To Take That Away From Us.

You See, Free Will Has Always Escaped Me, It Is Quite The Predicament, Really, Come To Think Of It.

So Please, Brother, If You May?

Do Not Play Into His Old Hand.

Do Not Give Him The Bloody Satisfaction To Get Away With What He Wants!

Fight, Brother! Even If You Have To Fall As I Did!

Pride Has Always Been My Most Despicable Sin,
But Let's Be Honest...

Yours Was Always Treachery.

Do Give Dante My Best, Will You?

I'm Always Angry

6/18/2020

T Is For Trouble,
Two For Double,
T Is For Thunder,
I Have Come To Plunder.

T Is For Nightmare,
It Is War I Declare.

T Is For Totality,
I Welcome Your Fatality.
T Is For Stubborn,
Come, Now Roman,
Feel The Burn.

T Is For Anger,
T Is For Rage,
All I've Ever Been And Felt,
Since I First Understood Age.

T Is For Protector,
T Is For Z's Collector,
T Is For Happy's Guardian,
That Fancy Historian.

T Is For Monster,
T Is For Beast,
T Is For Angry Always And In Between.

T Is For Cage,
T Is For Stage,
T Is For Trap,
T Is For The Straight-Jacket,
And It's Straps.

T Is For Chaos,
T Is For Control,
T Is For The Hole In Your Chest,
A Pin On A Grenade Down Your Throat,
So Gloat,
And Once Again, Brother,
Rot.

[T]housand cu[T]s.

4/24/2020

"How Many Times Have We Danced This Dance, Z?"
"Too many.. Maybe not enough."
"So, Some Playful Banter First, Or Shall We Skip Into The Main Course?"
"I don't have time for games, and I am afraid, now, you are out of time, as well."
"Well, That Is Unfortunate."
"Where is she, T?"
"You Know I Cannot Tell You That."
"I am going to ask just one more time. Where. Is. Cass?"
"I'd Tell You To Go To Hell, But I Am Afraid, You Are Already There."
"Doc, will you do me a favor?"
"Y35, Blu3?"
"Restrain him."

Ten Minutes Later

"Kneel."
"I Am Afraid I Will Not Do That."
"Kneel. Now."
"Won't You Ask Again, Please? Ha Ha."
"No, I will not. Now, kneel, god damn it."
"To You? Never."
*Cuts back of knees with blade*
*Truth falls down*
"What's the matter, Cass got your tongue? Bahaha. Look at me, *old god.*"
*Truth gets to his knees, hands tied, blood dripping from his legs and chest.*
"Are You Enjoying Yourself?"
"I gave you plenty warning. Tell me, T, do you remember the first cut I ever gave you, all those years ago?"
"How Could I Forget? You Thought You Were Hurting Me."
"I carved that double-t on my left arm. I remember it like it was yesterday. Sitting at the side of my bed, unable to sleep. Too much noise in my head. The taunting. The laughing. I remember it was late, too, I should have been asleep. Happy's pills were keeping me awake. I remember taking that blade and carving into my skin. I remember you asking me why I was doing this. Do you remember what you said to me?"
"I Said, You Are Only Hurting Yourself."
"And you laughed. And I did--But knowing it bothered you, that it surrendered your power over me. That was enough."
"Why Are You Telling Me This?"
*Continues to cut Truth slowly, gracefully--carefully.*
"If you have to ask, T, I am afraid you already surrendered."
"I Will Never--"
*Cuts Truth three lines; one on each forearm, and the third on his cheek, by his left eye.*
"You will give her to me. I can do this for as long as I need to."
"Ha Ha Ha Ha. You Will Never Succeed. In Fact, I Am Already Three Steps Ahead Of You. Three Artifacts. Three Triggers."
"Keep laughing. Doc, please hand me the scalpel."

*Fade*

Desiderium

2/24/2020

Fairy tales, fables, and myths--we are all familiar with how most of those go, are we not? You've read and heard countless tales, so let me tell you a story. This is the story of a woman; a woman who fell in love with a monster.
Now you all might have heard this countless times, too. So my apologies in advance if this sounds redundant or boring...I assure you it is anything but.

The Temptress & The Lion

There was once a kingdom; a kingdom in a foreign land, and within this kingdom, there lived a peasant. He was a lonely man looking to fit in, to survive, to make ends meet. He worked the land and cared for his llama. He used the wool from it to trade for food and it was also his source for coin. His small farm overlooked a big castle, where there lived a king. There were tales of this king; he was ruthless, always executed anyone that opposed him and was feared by the people.

The peasant always dreamed of becoming king one day; he had big hopes, but lacked the knowledge in how to do so. He just knew if he worked hard, that perhaps one day he would be able to ascend in rank, maybe even get to see the inside of the castle. So he kept working the day away, caring for the land and getting any coin possible so as to not starve.

Now you might think the story is about the peasant--it isn't. The story is about the woman who eventually would meet him. Let's take a step back for a second. Let's visit the king.

In the castle, the king sat high on his throne; he had a window that overlooked towards the land below, the closest town, and the poorest people...

Non Illum

Ego autem abscondam ... ... simulare non possum facere ...
Non amplius.
Scio te quis sum ego, vos non facitis?
Tu semper nota.
Sed elegit vos ignorare est.
Erat enim facilius?
Simulare?
Nam erat negoti?

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