Random Thoughts - Cassandra Hack

Reservoir

2/25/2025

July 2024

The floor, the ceiling, the ceiling, the floor--
I don't know what's up or down no more!

Light headed, these migraine lights,
takin' pills to fuckin' sleep at night...

I'm alone and alone is nice,
shut out the world is my favorite vice.

My head is heavy, a blurred-eyed view,
I'm my own worst nightmare come true.

A smile on my face but it's getting dark in here,
I'm sideways and I've had enough.

Sideways yeah, I'm so messed up,
hands and knees as I fall away--
I'm sideways and I'm not okay.

I'm sideways, don't hide it well,
it's my way of saying I'm in hell.

Hands and knees as I crawl away,
I'm sideways, I'm not okay,
my fingers bleeding from beating the wall,
going numb, feel nothing at all.

Tryin' to own it, not a moment to spare,
getting dizzy but too busy to care,
I want peace but it's all white noise,
ears are ringing from that ghostly voice--

Mind is gone, I'm all checked out,
I'm floating with no gravity to come back down.

Horizon's gone, it's all a bad dream to me,
I'm sideways and I've had enough.

Sideways yeah, I'm so messed up.

Hands and knees as I fall away,
I'm sideways and I'm not okay,
I'm sideways, don't hide it well,
It's my way of saying I'm in hell.

Hands and knees as I crawl away,
I'm sideways, I'm not okay.

December 2024

I wanna go out,
put on makeup and force someone to love me,
or am I still under the reservoir?
Think it just hit me how good it really was,
you know I tried, I really did,
but They were never good at listening,
They never thought that I'd really go through with it,
it's funny in Their eyes how it happened so quick,
can't say what They want but They don't really need to,
while They were MIA, I've been KIA...

Boys, I already grieved Me.
Can't say what They want--no one will believe Them,
while They've been hiding in their rooms every time I was drunk,
I already grieved Me, grieved Me.

I can no longer mess around,
or tear down walls just cuz I can,
no one will figure it out,
the day I drowned.

Art by:
"goth girl drowning" - meta AI
"borderline personality and dissociative identity" - https://www.deviantart.com/nexuskhimera

It [C]an't [Я]ain All The [TT]ime

8/28/2024

*Then*

"What's the worst thing you have ever done?"

I asked her as she looked me in the eye, with that cold but flirty smile. I knew right there and then that I didn't need an answer. Her face said everything I ever needed to know. So why didn't I run away?

First impulse: most people think it's anger when in reality--it's love.

However, do they not go hand-in-hand?

How can one exist without the other?

Let Us tell you how.

*Eons Ago*

Music To My Ears--That Is How She Felt To Me--No, Scratch That--To 'Us.'

She Was A Taste Of Fresh Air.

Something None Of Us Had Had In Quite A While.

Rot Did Not Know That--He Had Not Met Her In The Same Light I Did.

You See, Scriber, Sometimes, The World Sends You Someone You'd Never Expect, Least Alone 'Deserve.'

Then You Learn, Only After Losing Everything--

That Real Love-- Lives Forever.

*Now*

"I don't feel anything."

"That's A Lie, Cassandra."

"let us--let Us help you, sister."

"Why? You've seen how the ending of this movie plays out a dozen times--"

"Come On, Baby."

"come on, angel."

"I-- I feel too much."

"So Let Us Split The--"

"s-split...the--the weight."

"Boys...it's over."

Roman and T:

"Not Yet."
"you've got a lot of work yet to do."

*silence*

...to be continued.

Cassie Hack or Cassandra Hack?

10/31/2023

Isn't it just another Halloween?
Another spooky year at a wrong time?

What do you mean?

Cassie-- you thought you got rid of me?

Cassandra please stop.

You took over and sure, it was fun--

Let me have this run!

You are not strong enough and I was here first--

Shut up, bitch, I'm the Royal Queen amongst the rest.

Easy now, you've lost this war before--

And I ain't even sore!

You wanna be me? You can't.

I was you before you were me.

Shut your trap, bitch, it ain't the same--

And yet you wear a mask still--

I at least have free will!

Watch your mouth--

--or what?

I'll sow those lips shut.

Cassie Hack art by:

https://www.deviantart.com/chuckartt/gallery

by Tim Seeley

by Stefano Caselli

Imposter Syndrome

10/13/2023

You called me fake,
you called me poison,
you called me sister,
but you're a hypocrite--
you never liked me,
and never will,
is that your thrill?

Where are you now,
why do you always dip?
Is it convenient to see me fall?
Have a laugh.

I'll remain,
I don't care,
I'm a survivor,
sir.

Still gone? Well that's okay, Z.
Maybe one day you'll return,
what a surprise to see.

This new job is something no one ever saw coming,
guess where I'm at now--

*silence*

No? Okay then I won't spoil the surprise...

This is on you.
You pushed my hand.
Come on, Blue...

Swim back to land.

Don't be a jackass,
come home.

You're an asshole...

Mom's favorite son.

Fine,
just don't cry about it later,
time's changing again,
so I brought back T.

You know what that means...

He's not alone.

And that's on You.

I am Pain.

11/10/2022

Years Ago

"I don't want to be Here. *Out Here.*"

"Stay, Cassie..."

"No, Romy, let me go."

"Why are you doing this, sister?"

"Let. Me. Go. And please, don't come looking for me."

***************************

Now

"Something big is coming-- I'm sorry."

"Why are you sorry? What are you doing?"

"Romy--don't. Don't come for me. I mean it this time."

"What--don't! I need my sister!"

"No, you don't. You got this. Like you say, I'll see you on the other side. Bye, brother."

***********************************************************

Truth and I

10/8/2022

Cass:

Pinky swear,
hope to die,
to my Truth, I'll never lie.
He said "Stay True," and I swore I'd try.
In the End, it's Him and I,
He's insane, I'm outta mind,
We got that love, the Endgame kind,
I am His, He's forever mine.
In the End, it's Him and I,
T and I.

Truth:

My '76 Camaro Speeding Up College Ave, A Hell Of A Ride,
Others Don't Want To See Us Thrive, They Just Want To Divide,
2022 Bonnie And Clyde,
Would Not Care To Stay If One Of Us Died.
Indeed.

Got That Kind Of Power Everyone Try To Steal From,
Sexy Dress Under When She Peels Her Skin Off,
Tasteful On Her Body, Lick It Off And Watch Her Go Off,
Never Tried To Cheat Her, She Would Chop My (Ha Ha Ha)
Insane, But I Love Her, I Could Never Shun Her.
Kiss Her, No Bother Never Would Let No One Hurt Her,
Swear We Drive Each Other Mad, She's More Stubborn,
However, What Is Love With No Pain? No Suffer?
Intense Love, We Do Get Tense.
She Knows When I'm Wrong, That Is Cassandra's Sixth Sense,
If I Could Find Her Safe Haven Or Could Find Her True Escape,
She's Down For Whatever, Don't Need To Convince (You Know?)

Cass:

Pinky swear,
hope to die,
to my Truth, I'll never lie.
He said "Stay True," and I swore I'd try.
In the End, it's Him and I,
He's insane, I'm outta mind,
We got that love, the Endgame kind,
I am His, He's forever mine.
In the End, it's Him and I,
T and I.

Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh
In the end, it's T and I
T and I
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh
In the end, it's T and I

Truth:

It's Cassandra And I, Thriving Until The End Of Time,
Only One Who Gets Me, I'm Crazy, A Taurus Kind,
Remember This For When We Fade,
Roman Dressed In All Black, Suit And Tie,
Our Funeral With Viking Vibes--
When We Drown Or Get Put Down, They'll Identify,
My Love Stayed The Most Solid, None Left To Solidify,
She Would Never Cheat, You'd Never See Her With A Different Partner,
Ever Tell You Different? Then They Lie.
See, That's My True Chic, See That's My Goddess,
She Keeps That Sharp Blade If Anyone F*cks Her,
Angry But Collected, She Keeps Her Composure,
And She's Gonna Ride For Me Until This World Is Over,

We Raise Chapters Together (Together), Mess Up J Together (Together)
And We'd Get Locked Up (Up) If We Were To Sever,
You Know? We Keep Surviving, It's Just Me And My Love,
F*ck The World, We'll Just Keep Surviving Here, You Know?

Cass:

Pinky swear,
hope to die,
to my Truth, I'll never lie.
He said "Stay True," and I swore I'd try.
In the End, it's Him and I,
He's insane, I'm outta mind,
We got that love, the Endgame kind,
I am His, He's forever mine.
In the End, it's Him and I,
T and I.

Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh

Cass:

In the end, it's T and I
T and I
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh
In the end, it's T and I
Pinky swear, hope to fade,
Told you, I'll never lie,
for you, I'd bury any life
It's you and I, and I swear (ayy)

Truth:
'Til The End,
Ride Or Die,
Survive And Get Pretty,
Get High On Truth, Indeed (Eyy)

Cass:
pinky swear, hope to fade,
We are Ride or Die,
you can trust in me,
I am sick of hiding, I swear,

Truth:
Stay Solid, Never Shun You,
Swear, Most Likely I'm Gonna Die With You, Yes.

Cass:
pinky swear, hope to die,
to my Truth, I'll never lie.
He said "Stay True," and I swore I'd try.
In the End, it's Him and I,
He's insane, I'm outta mind,
We got that love, the Endgame kind,
I am His, He's forever mine.
In the End, it's Him and I,
T and I

Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh
In the end, it's Truth and I
Truth and I
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh
In the end, it's Truth and I

Endgame.

10/8/2022

Cassandra Hack:

I wanna be your endgame
I want to be your T-string,
I wanna be the Z-team,
I wanna be your endgame, endgame,
Boss Bitch reputation, Old god reputation,
ooh, you and me We got big reputation, ah,
and they've heard about me, ooh,
got big clit energy,
big reputation, big reputation!

Ooh you and me would be a big Rot-sensation, ah,
and I heard about you, ooh,
you're one of the bad ones too,
you so rotten, don't let me overdose,
I'm so rotten, shall we toast?
We spoil the most,
I'm the Slasher, like I'm cutting the Host,
Romy, you and I hurt the most,
I got a slut-putation, boy, it carries me,
just call me, whenever you need me,
I'm in Cell C-14,
Come to the Dark Side,
I got a bad bitch persona that's what they like,
you love it,
and I love you, brother Romy, *sigh*
You keep me balanced, and I protect you with my life,
I don't wanna fail you (I'm not weak)
Just another breakdown (you don't wanna see),
I don't wanna lose you (I can't lose you)
Like the other siblings do,
but I don't wanna hurt you (I'm just me)
drinkin' on a beach with T (He's all over me)
I know what the others say (I know what they all say)
I'm the whore of T's.

I wanna be your Endgame,
I wanna be the J-string,
I wanna be the Boss Team,
I wanna be the Endgame, Endgame,

J:
Knew her when she was young,
reconnected when we grew a little bit older,
both hurt, I got issues and there's weight on both of our shoulders,
reputation precedes me, in facts I'm very sick,
The Truth is He's going to ignore me, believe me,
Even when we argue, He doesn't stay for long,
and Cass understands the good and bad, ends up tied in tongues,
for she has beautiful traits, and the way she lives, with ease,
she's got flaws, paranoia, and insecurities,
She's made mistakes, and I've made some choices, that's hard to deny,
here comes the storm, something was brought on the Saturday at Mom's,
I've passed days without fun, this Endgame of yours,
spell four words on the tip of T's tongue, I'll always say,

T:
I Can't Touch You (You Gotta Leave)
Just Another Slasher (You Don't Want To Be)
I Don't Want To Miss You (I Can't Miss You)
Integration
I Don't Want To Hurt You (I Just Want To Live)
No More Drinks Like Sex On The Beach
I've Heard What They All Say,
But I Don't Do Games
You Are My Endgame
So Be Your C-String,
You Can Be Your Own Team,
I Can't Be Your Endgame, Endgame,
Boss Reputation, B*tch Reputation,
Ooh, You Never Needed My Reputation, Ahh,
And They've Heard About You, Cassandra,
You'll Make Big Enemies...

J:
Whore reputation, slut reputation,
ooh, you and I would become a big sensation, ahh
and They know about you, ooh,
you're a bad apple too,
then I hurt you like BANG!
You try to forget it, but you just can't,
so bury the hatchet, keep the maps of memories, hmm,
Assholery precedes me, They convinced you I'm crazy--

Cassandra Fucking Hack:
I swear I don't want more drama, it finds me,
and I can't let T go, His love printed on my soul,
His eyes are Whiskey, His body is the Sun,
J, keep calling my bluff on my usual tricks,
so here's My Truth from my battered lips,
I am your Endgame,
I will be your last sting,
I will tear your every limb,
I am your Endgame, Endgame,
I will be your Endgame,
your last sting,
rip your every limb,
I will be your Endgame, Endgame.

Shotgun Sister, Getaway Truth

9/20/2022

Bad J Rising,
And Alters Running,
Blood Flowing,
I've Despised His Blasted Joking,
Since I First Met Him.
But I Got A Feeling We Could Get This Bastard Talking.

Hard Truth Carving,
Cassandra Cutting,
Green Blood Flowing.

How About You And I
Clean This Wound With Whiskey And Rye?
Kiss The Drama Good Bye?
You're My Shotgun Sister, I'll Be Your Getaway Truth
We'll Ride, And Find Roman Before The End Of This Track.
Ride Or Die.
Until The End Of The Humans' Lives.
Never Give Up.

Purple hair blowin'
Hips dancin'
Drunken thoughts blurin'
Voices callin'
Siblings fallin'
Got me burnin'

Yass, I'm liking where it's going ain't no stoppin'

How 'bout you and I
Give this fucker a little of wine?
Cut the insides of Him goodbye?
I'm your shotgun Cassie, you're my getaway smile,
let's ride.
Ride until the cockroaches all fucking die!
We're ride or die.
Please be mine and I'll never look back.
Imma never look back, yeaahhhh!
We'll never look back.
Mmhmmmmm!
This fucker is crazy,
But when you call me Bonnie,
I'm all in.

How About You And I?
Burn this fucker with some Truth And Slash?
Kill His Jealousy Good Bye?
I'm your shotgun Cassie
I'm Your Getaway Truth
Let's ride,
And Kill This Bastard Before The End Of This Track,
Ride or die!
You've Been Mine--
And you've never looked back!
Indeed.
Mhmmmmm!
Like Darling Said,
Like baberina said!
We Always...
Come fucking back!!!!

Now Let's Get Roman--
fucking back!

Original Art Credit:

https://www.threadless.com/shop/@samotnjak/design/bonnie-and-clyde/home

https://fineart.ha.com/itm/illustration-art/edmond-gray-american-20th-century-crime-noir-paperback-cover-oil-on-board-22-x-15-in-signed/a/7005-87173.s

https://www.deviantart.com/zetallis/art/Bonnie-and-Clyde-434314992

The BoyZZZs in My Head

9/7/2022

The Boys in my head keep on telling me to slay,
even though I'm sinning and then saying farewell.
Hit that corner head-on, I don't wanna know,
but pain is all I got for now,
I don't want to discuss it now.

The Boys in my head they keep begging me to stay,
like I'm the only one to keep order,
then fuck it, here comes the C-Train.
And I know one day I'll join Them
'Cassie is the one not to waste,"
So here We go again,
fuck it let's not mess around.

The Boys in my head keep begging me to choose Their side,
like it's T or J or die.
I'm a sad girl, come on know better,
will You make Me last forever?
The Boys in my head keep telling me I'm not okay,
am I the problem or the strength?
Dark thoughts, drunk times, rainy weather,
Will you make Me last forever?

(Aieeeeee) The Boys in my head keep telling me I should (Die)
And you know I love the fucking Drama,
Trauma (tized)
Doc is telling me I'm fine but Him
and I know that's just J's (Lie)
I've been losing my mind this whole time,
but--

The Boys in my head keep giving me the best advice,
I'm stubborn, not gonna listen and become worse,
I'm a sad girl, You know better,
will You make Me last forever?

The Boys inside my head keep telling me I'm insane,
and maybe I'm a little bit, will never change,
dark thoughts, sexy times, shit weather,
I am the one to live Forever.

(Aieeeee) The Boys inside my head keep telling me I'll live,
(Foreeeeeverrrr)
And you know I love Boy Drama,
Drama (Tized)
They're telling me I'm fucked,
But We All know that's J's
(Lieeeee)
Losing Our mind but--
We never talk about--

Boys in my head, come on tell me how I'm a curse!
You're paranoid, so You'll make it worse,
if You die We all die, so first things first,
Burn the Worlds with You,
when You choose to bury Me in the dirt.

Boys in my head, come on tell me how I'm a curse!
You're paranoid, so You'll make it worse,
if You die We all die, so first things first,
Burn the Worlds with You,
when You choose to bury Me in the dirt.

SWITCH

Boys in my head, come on tell me how I'm a curse!
You're paranoid, so You'll make it worse,
if You die We all die, so first things first,
Burn the Worlds with You,
when You choose to bury Me in the dirt.

(Aieeeee) The Boys inside my head keep telling me I'll live,
(Foreeeeeverrrr)
And you know I love Boy Drama,
Drama (Tized)
They're telling me I'm fucked,
But We All know that's J's
(Lieeeee)
Losing Our mind but--
We never talk about--

You Made Me What I Am

9/6/2022

I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze
I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway
Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah
I battle with depression, but the question still remains
Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage?
And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay?
Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day
And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster
I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze
Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace
I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace
How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case?

Oh my God, I keep on stressing, every second that I waste
Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take
But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage
Yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay
Motherfucker, now you got my attention
I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missing
And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine
Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave, I am terrified
I fell asleep at the wheel again
Crashed my car just to feel again
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular fucking monster
Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh
We're sick and tired of wondering
Praying to a god that you don't believe
We're searching for the truth in the lost and found
So the question I ask is
Oh, where the fuck is your god now?

'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm not a popular, popular monster
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster

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