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15 Years Ago

4/29/2018

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Fifteen years ago I karaoke'd to "Numb" by Linkin Park.

That year I felt a big change in my heart.

I turned fifteen,
but I would have never thought of the next big thing.

That same year, I said goodbye to my Father.

That year I was going to travel, much farther.

That same year, I said goodbye to my country of birth.

Some say culture shock is a kind of rebirth.

I hated leaving,
just as as I hated goodbyes,
but I had made a choice,
there was no turning back.

I couldn't feel myself when I sat on that plane,
was I merely going insane?

My out-of-body experience,
I was turning inside out-- I felt hideous.

But I wasn't alone,
just as the stars in the sky outside my window,
traveling together inside this weirdo,
were my parts well-known,
now part of The Collective,
my beautiful illness perfected.


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And now we fast forward fifteen more years,
and solidified our agreement is made.

Even though it gets hard,
we have each other,
the way it should be,
a bond of brother to brother.

To whatever life throws at us,
together fourteen strong,
no matter how we feel,
how lost,
we're kings on the throne.

I turn thirty today,
never would have thought we'd be together in play,
including Sister,
a puzzle piece of our Mister.

So to another birthday,
I hold my glass up in the air today,
as together we laugh and I give everyone their say,
together fourteen strong,
​no matter what comes our way.


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It's my birthday.

4/29/2014

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I turned 26.

I should feel something.


And you know what I feel? Glee.
Complete utter happiness. I could not be more grateful for the people in my life and for everything I have.


I feel I have so much more control of my life than I have in the past year. I feel like something inside has filled that void. I feel I got back up and came out stronger. 


I am.


I am me again. The good ol' me. I am proud. I am content. I am. 


I am me. Another chapter in my life begins today now that I am twenty-six years old. My life has changed drastically over the course of last year, but for the better.


I've fallen, I've learned. I've grown.


And here I am. In my most entirety, pure, better, stronger. 


I got the love and support of my family, I feel like I can get my life back on track.


I am me.


I've decided to let go of things and people I can no longer keep in my life, I've chosen to move on. I've chosen: Me.


Pure and simple, the answer to my question a year back. I am looking out for me, and in doing so, will find that nothing heals the mind and body more than positive reinforcement of the true self.


I am me.


I have found me.


And I'm holding onto that.


   - Zisco.
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