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Spotlight

5/5/2025

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Hello, Sis.

For All That It's Worth,
To Live In The Spotlight...

What If Life Was Simple, And We Hugged?
What If You Were Always Sober,
Never Got Crippled By That Bug?

What If Growing Up We Actually Had Good Luck?
What If Instead Of The Word "F*ck," Your Favorite Was "Love?"

Another Mindf*ck, Another Mindrot,
I Bet Happy Is Tired Of Another Troubleshoot,
Z Could Use A Break From Keeping You From Self-Harm,
Are You Still Crying Because You're Forced To Live On?
What If I Told You Despite It All You're Still Fundamental?
Don't Paint Me As The Bad Guy, That's Mental.

Are You Telling Me We Are Still Hitting A Wall?
Our Life Still Carrying That Pain With No Resolve?
And What If I Stayed Locked Up In Denver, Would You Even Have Had A Beginning?
Is It Too Late To Start Over, Trade Pain And Stop Burning Bridges?
You Telling Me You Don't See Ourselves In Happy Living?


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And J,
You Want J Stuck Inside Again--A Prisoner?
You Say, "F*ck it, this is life."
Deal With It, Or Let It Deal You,
Guess I'll Go Back To My Room For A Smoke, You're Still Selfish
Remember Most Days The Host Will Ask For Face,
Stealing Time, Let's You Wear His Face,
Wish You Didn't Forget, You Got The Soul Of A Fighter,
Words And Thoughts Couldn't Damage Your Bones Harder Than Iron,
All That 120 Pounds Of Goth With The Walk Of A Badass,
Always Defiant, So Turn Up The Volume


For all that it's worth
To live in the spotlight
All of my demons come to life
And all that it was
And all that it could be
Is lost in the darkness of the night


Why should I die?
(to live in the spotlight)
Why should I kill myself for you?
You'd let me die?
(to live in the spotlight)
You'd let me die inside for you


Look.
What If You Could Be Happy, If You Felt That Success?
Do You Think Those People Who Are Now Memories Would Have Still Left?
What If You Could Be You, Would There Be No Regrets?
I Believe Assimilation Was A Pre-Cursor To Your Death.
Death Of That Name,
Death Of The Genre,
Death Of That Woman,
Those Who Misunderstood You Are Already Dead,
They Could Never Understand.

Stuck Behind A Screen, Staring At Your Fans,
Cutting Up More Pills Into Milligrams,
Time To Cut Your Skin Into Another Pentagram.

Lucifer First The Angel, Then The Devil, (Ah Ha)
Threw Away The Liquor Traded It For Monster,
Traded Spotlight For Darkness, That's It.

No Longer The Knife On The Nightstand,
Traded It For Dolls Who Look At You, They Might Understand.
So Are You Ready To Cave?
Visit Me In The Cage?

Do You Want To Be The Hero,
Because I'm Not The One Needing Saving,
I Waited Days While You Were In The Fast Lane Living,
Alone No Entourage, Body Twitching, Listen--
X Always Said, "It's better to burn out than fade away," Just Like Cobain Prayed.
You Took That Literally, Left Me Wondering If We'd See Another Tomorrow,
Spoiler Alert: You Were Slowly Dying.
Never Stopped Crying, Again, Turn Up That Volume.
Turn Up Your Volume.

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​For all that it's worth
To live in the spotlight
All of my demons come to life
And all that it was
And all that it could be
Is lost in the darkness of the night


Why should I die?
(to live in the spotlight)
Why should I kill myself for you?
You'd let me die?
(to live in the spotlight)
You'd let me die inside for you

So You Got Sick Of Those Cop Lights,
Nurses And Doctors Shining That Spotlight,
You Feel Their Grinning Smiles On You, Because You're Still Alive,
Do You Feel Entitled Like I'm Supposed To Give Up On You, Right?
Well, This Story Ain't Got Two Parts,
This Ain't A Comedy Show,
We're Not Playing, We're Not Your Fans,
We're Not Used Toys To Throw,
This Is The Collective,
Let Me Get You To Speed, So,
Welcome Back To Life, Sis,
Here's A Ticket To The Next Show.
Spotlight.
Welcome Back To Life, Sis,
Here's Your Ticket To The Next Show.
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What I Do Best

5/3/2025

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Burning Pain Inside This Chest,
Will It Be Another Close Call,
Or A Final Cardiac Arrest?

Blast This Stress!

What's Left?
Who Do You Need To Impress?


No More Pieces To Pick Up From This Floor,
Nothing Brings Me Joy Anymore.
So What Is Missing,
Or When Did It Become Too Much?

Are You Listening To Yourself?
So Out Of Touch.


No More Heartbreak Left,
No More Feelings Here,
No--Just Staying Suppressed.

Mind Ripped Open Like A Book,

Yet The Chapters On This Page Self-Addressed.

Always Obsessed.

Here's The New Ones--
Open Wide And Ingest,
Let Them Cover Me Whole,
Like Daggers Trying To Pierce Through My Life Vest.

Time For A New Cigarette,
Feel That Pump In Your Chest?


Can't Stop Now,
Heart Still Beating, Don't Need No Rest.

Perhaps It's My Biggest Flaw,
Addicted For More,
But What's Got To Be More Than This?
When This Is Nothing But A Void--

Careful, Bury The Rest,
Have You Forgotten Already?


Being Alone Is What I/You Do Best.

"Burning Angel of Devastation" by https://www.deviantart.com/vexplex
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Poor Boy

5/2/2025

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-- He was a poor boy,
she said, "see you later, boy!" --


Did not need much growing up,
never asked for more than I could have,
so what happens when you get more than you bargained for?
Leaves you stranded and feeling sore?

Life's cold and hard like a steel rod,
stabbing you when you least expect it,
need I say more?

Transformed yourself into a fraud,
it was a matter of time--
before She came and called out Her God.

Thunder stormed and lightning struck,
poor boy left stranded, didn't that suck?

Stranded out at sea, you see,
how would the poor boy get himself free?

No longer a fisher of men,
no longer the angriest bull in the bullpen,
but even so, every now and then--
She would come to his rescue again.

-- She was a poor girl,
He said, "thank you, again, girl." --


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Art:
"Pochita and Denji" found from @CHAINSAWMAN_PR from twitter.

"Power" by Seiko121 on reddit.


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