Chapter One Hundred And One: M.C. Bombastic

I've been chasin' my life for some time (some time, some time)
With my grinnin' smile and my bottle of wine
(bottle of wine, bottle of wine)
On these long, scary lonely roads
(lonely roads, lonely roads)
I kept searchin', but to no avail,
I guess I had to run away, run away,
cuz I lost my way, lost my way,
Cuz I lost my way, each day,
Cuz I lost my way, gotta find my way, find my way, ay-ay-ay-ay-ay

I left from momma's with no end in sight,
the seasons changin', a freeze headed my way
Heart made of stone, but soft as tissue within,
they say legends are made out of issues and a mean grin,
brought myself to the edge of death,
still managed to live out of spite,
God kept giving me multiple signs and second chances,
Sold my soul to the bottle despite circumstances,
Same ol' reboot with no end in sight,
gave up hope even with all my might,
became selfish and ran out of my second chances,
getting close to hitting a wall with no chance to advance it
but in the end eventually I wanted deliverance,
so I yelled....

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I've been chasin' my life for some time (some time, some time)
With my grinnin' smile and my bottle of wine
(bottle of wine, bottle of wine)
On these long, scary lonely roads
(lonely roads, lonely roads)
I kept searchin', but to no avail,
I guess I had to run away, run away,
cuz I lost my way, lost my way,
Cuz I lost my way, each day,
Cuz I lost my way, gotta find my way, find my way ay-ay-ay-ay-ay

Cannot recall a time when I loved myself unconditionally,
wine glass in hand, "this one's assault to injury!"
what's another concussion but repeat of history?
Called the same "friends" and it's "sick of your same ol' sh**"
Looked at my reflection screaming, "dammit Z, you had it
Why'd you have to keep drinking and unbalance?"
Then people started questioning your choices,
were you just another self-abuser pain-addict?
Kept hiding just to avoid finding my way,
lost all those "friends" when you went straight,
so go ahead and keep track, remember it,
took me years, still lookin' for deliverance.

I've been chasin' my life for some time (some time, some time)
With my grinnin' smile and my bottle of wine
(bottle of wine, bottle of wine)
On these long, scary lonely roads
(lonely roads, lonely roads)
I kept searchin', but to no avail,
I guess I had to run away, run away,
cuz I lost my way, lost my way,
Cuz I lost my way, each day,
Cuz I lost my way, gotta find my way, find my way ay-ay-ay-ay-ay
Took everything to atone for the pain I had caused,
the trust I shattered still staining my soul,
took my belongings and sold them to the poor,
it was then I discovered what it's like to be a voyeur,
Watchin' my whole life pass me by, got distance between my brothers,
slowly tore at the image of the son that once made proud--my mother--
I honestly can say that over time I re-started lovin' me,
growing closer to the image of who I'm 'possed to be,
I bury now the old version of sin,
with my family's support I can go back to being a King,
the internal healin' ain't no coincidence,
because in the end it brought me to deliverance,
So I say...
I'm done chasin' my life, no I'm here (I'm here, I'm here)
With my family by my side and my brother's in arms,
(brothers in arms, brothers in arms)
No longer going down scary roads,
(scary roads, scary roads)
I'm done searchin', now I've found purpose,
no longer lost in my way, lost in my way,
no longer lost, I say, lost I say,
cuz I found my way, I found my way, found my way, found my way, ay-ay-ay-ay-ay