Chapter Ninety: Mistress

Enter dark,
​welcome night,
the moon shines,
I bark--

What a fright,
chatting you up,
I welcomed your might,
couldn't help but slip up.

Told you things I hadn't told anyone,
and you didn't walk away,
thought I was done,
but you listened and stayed.

You knew Us once,
a long time ago,
now you and Us met formally,
I wondered if you could tolerate my stunts.

We lived in different worlds,
it seemed,
or perhaps it was just bad timing,
or the booze that made it feel like a dream.

You were flattered at my advances,
I was foolish to think I had any chances.

Perhaps it was my constant need for validation,
or the deeper desires you brought out of me,
damn that flirtation!

Just unattainable it showed to be,
we had met at the wrong time,
you see?

But the words you shared with me pulled me from the ledge,
I had to keep going,
it wouldn't be too much of a stretch.

Like the many before you,
I had to let you be,
I couldn't let my poison torture you,
your spirit had to stay free.

Once in a while I see you dancing,
and it makes me smile again,
our talks were fun and enticing,
Mistress, you erased the mundane.

You're a good reminder of the good outside,
despite the darkness,
no more reason for me to hide,
I'm moving forward now--
--more or less.

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