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Old Man Z

4/29/2025

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They once told me it all happens in threes,
pain, pleasure, grief,
happiness, anger, and relief.

It's been a while since we've last spoken,
that's true,
but you will still forever call me Blue.

And you will remain True Red,
agreed,
even when you're in the cage,
or freed.

Happy birthday to Us,
have you forgotten?
Just like leaving the other one to remain rotten.

Cast aside all your remaining anger,
is it still there, sibling?
Or did you finally find a way to bury it all,
can you hear Yellow still scribbling?

Brown no longer singing--
but wait, is that Green bastard still grinning?

Do not worry, Orange still remains locked up,
just like Purple will always be f*cked up.

Happy birthday to Us,
now do you recall?
Or do you only remember the bad days,
above all?

I'm sure Rojo misses your monologues,
just like Grey misses feeding Us pills,
and We obedient like lapdogs,
until chaos breaks welcoming The Twins' new thrills.

Happy birthday to Us,
does it even matter, T?
For someone as ageless as you,
does it even hurt anymore,
shall I loosen the noose from your neck,
and pull you down from that tree?

Nah, I think your time is not up quite yet,
I still haven't heard all that you regret.

Happy birthday to Us,
I can see He's up there still observing,
from the top of that pyramid,
Pharaoh's body rests inside,
preserving.

If anything, I feel He got lucky,
no, I do not feel sad for Him,
He had the easy way out,
and now His remains are but fossilized putty.

Well, happy birthday to the Host,
if He ever feels like peeking through Our Veil,
from pillar to post,
watch me while I capture another God,
and impale.


"Swamp Thing - Old Man" by ​https://www.deviantart.com/bohy
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15 Years Ago

4/29/2018

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Fifteen years ago I karaoke'd to "Numb" by Linkin Park.

That year I felt a big change in my heart.

I turned fifteen,
but I would have never thought of the next big thing.

That same year, I said goodbye to my Father.

That year I was going to travel, much farther.

That same year, I said goodbye to my country of birth.

Some say culture shock is a kind of rebirth.

I hated leaving,
just as as I hated goodbyes,
but I had made a choice,
there was no turning back.

I couldn't feel myself when I sat on that plane,
was I merely going insane?

My out-of-body experience,
I was turning inside out-- I felt hideous.

But I wasn't alone,
just as the stars in the sky outside my window,
traveling together inside this weirdo,
were my parts well-known,
now part of The Collective,
my beautiful illness perfected.


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And now we fast forward fifteen more years,
and solidified our agreement is made.

Even though it gets hard,
we have each other,
the way it should be,
a bond of brother to brother.

To whatever life throws at us,
together fourteen strong,
no matter how we feel,
how lost,
we're kings on the throne.

I turn thirty today,
never would have thought we'd be together in play,
including Sister,
a puzzle piece of our Mister.

So to another birthday,
I hold my glass up in the air today,
as together we laugh and I give everyone their say,
together fourteen strong,
​no matter what comes our way.


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It's my birthday.

4/29/2014

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I turned 26.

I should feel something.


And you know what I feel? Glee.
Complete utter happiness. I could not be more grateful for the people in my life and for everything I have.


I feel I have so much more control of my life than I have in the past year. I feel like something inside has filled that void. I feel I got back up and came out stronger. 


I am.


I am me again. The good ol' me. I am proud. I am content. I am. 


I am me. Another chapter in my life begins today now that I am twenty-six years old. My life has changed drastically over the course of last year, but for the better.


I've fallen, I've learned. I've grown.


And here I am. In my most entirety, pure, better, stronger. 


I got the love and support of my family, I feel like I can get my life back on track.


I am me.


I've decided to let go of things and people I can no longer keep in my life, I've chosen to move on. I've chosen: Me.


Pure and simple, the answer to my question a year back. I am looking out for me, and in doing so, will find that nothing heals the mind and body more than positive reinforcement of the true self.


I am me.


I have found me.


And I'm holding onto that.


   - Zisco.
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